Hawaiian Journeys Of The Heart
Some of us have heard of this term,Twin Flame. I’m still wrapping my head around it, because I really don’t know how this whole past life connection actually turns out to be in real life.
I’m a true romantic. I never hold back, and never withhold what my heart commands me to feel. This is definitely a new way of being. Although in the past I have been impulsive and have made bad choices based in all sort of mind assumptions, listening to my heart and only my heart is a way of being I’m yet to get used to.
It’s hard work not to let fear and the mind games you play endlessly against yourself get in the way of how you truly feel about someone. It’s hard enough figuring out how to live and let live when you have a strong connection with someone. Even harder is when you meet someone and realise you already played some loving role with them in the past.
It’s overwhelmingly confusing to allow just the now to tell you how you feel. It’s nearly impossible to control your heart aches and longing when you know and have seen the past and how much you once already loved someone.
Even more crazy is how the universe puts you ,once again, in front of this person. How the cosmos brings you in front of each other to find out what is hidden within, to learn more about the mystery of Self.
I guess this time I’m a little luckier, because at last I understand more about hell and heaven than I used to. Awareness is in place and I can acknowledge karmic connections and how soul recognition works. It’s all very “intellectualized”, and people in spiritual circles know about these timeless connections.
But how does it play out? When you know it didn’t work before, when you know in past lives it was full of uncertainty, pain and even death.
How can you just let things unfold when your whole system is craving every single cell of some other being because your whole particles remember them.
Even odder is when you barely even know this person in this current life!
See, my heart sent me on a quest to Hawaii. It commanded me to go away in search of something secret. I truly felt guided, and I went on this heart journey chosen by my soul. I knew I was going to experience something amazing. I swam with dolphins, I sang with the whales, I chilled out with turtles, I chased sharks, and I’m not speaking figuratively. I actually did those things. I followed the rainbows in the path, and I met the most amazing people. And deep down I hoped I was going to meet someone, someone who would change everything I know, that would make this trip truly enchanted. I thought hey, maybe I’ll meet my soul mate there.
As it turns out, Hawaii did have some romantic adventures and I got involved with someone truly amazing and there was love, but not the kind of love I thought I was going to find. Not the kind of love I thought my heart was after.
I made some new connections, some lovely people indeed, and when I returned to London I was very happy and I missed Hawaii and the most magical time I had ever had. The energy of the land and the secrets within it, I was truly home there and I’ll carry it with me forever.
I also thought mmm, my heart was wrong. I didn’t meet that person. I wasn’t sad, I just thought it was just not meant to happen there like I dreamed. But hearts are wise things. They know way more than they let you see.
It wasn’t even a month since Hawaii that something strange started to happen. It was slow and warm, the pieces of this puzzle started appearing right in front of my eyes. I kept in touch with someone, without really knowing why and understanding why I felt so drawn to this person.
I mean, how can you feel so much for someone you don’t even know? How can this be so very real, a feeling that triggers memory, that transcends time and space. Is this love? Is this how it’s suppose to be? Taking over all your being and playing with the vulnerability of your soul?
A small sparkle that can change over into the brightest star ever born, but at the same time so fragile and perfectly fit inside a heart.
I knew something was happening, but I sure wasn’t prepared to find out this was my twin flame. I sure had no idea of what to do with this information nor how to feel about it.
I don’t even know if twin flames end up together or not.
In what I could see from previous lives shown to me, through visions, is that some of those encounters ended rather badly.
Not only that, this person lives an ocean across me. My mind has worked well in listing one million reasons why I should not even consider the possibility of being together or giving this a chance. But my heart on the other hand can’t have enough of the feeling he brings, so very familiar and at the same intoxicating with joy and peace as well as raising all sorts of uncertainties and old behaviour patterns.
How do you deal with love that is written in the heavens? It’s terrifying to know how powerful this connection is, and how uncertain it can turn out to be.
Have I even learned what I was meant to do in the past lives I had with him? Why is he here again? So many questions of the mind trying to aimlessly figure out what can’t really be explained but only felt.
Well I guess I’ll find out soon. Whatever happens, I can only know in my heart that I know him well and I’m ready to find out what this life has hidden for us.
With fearless courage to love how love should be. I’m ready to find out the unknown, to touch the heavens’ secrets, and to get to know about him here, in the present of the now.
Thanks for reading,
Love and Light,
If you want to read more on Hawaiian tales here is another one : Embarking On A Journey Of The Heart