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What Keeps The Bond Between Lovers?

“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” ― Jalaluddin RumiThe Illuminated Rumi

I often wonder what keeps people together.

What is the damn bond … the magical invisible string that ties one to another?

I also used to think doing things in the same way was the issue keeping me from actually understanding more about love and emotional satisfaction.

But wait, since I have changed everything, even myself, I have done everything different … and tried and tested with all sorts of different situations.

Still I’m yet to experience, in a flash, what I know to be true love in my heart.

But those are even deeper topics for discussion.

Right now I’m just contemplating this question:

So what keeps the bond?

Is it something that can be controlled or is it totally random? Or even worse .. is it meant to be with the one person that is meant for you?

That’s rather unfair to everyone else … if you think there is only this one person who is a match to you …. Amongst 7 billion others …

You are then bound to find each other, and vague in search of this almost impossible quest … But isn’t this the biggest lie?

First of all let’s take a look at love .. and what love is .. I’m talking about true unconditional love; not falling in love with the things about the person .. but falling in love with the energy behind that identity… If so… Isn’t that energy within everyone?

Because if we are one, we are all the same energy being played over and over by different theatrical characters. But when you strip away identity, what is left is the immutable .. What is left is raw, never changing, wholesome energy. Its source. The universe itself.

So… If we are falling in love, the least important thing is the person, the personality … I was happy to hear from Esther Hicks in one of her talks “ The person is irrelevant when you are in love”. Maybe it’s because when love comes it takes you so abruptly and strongly that you better have someone to become the object of your loving, or for you to use it as an excuse to connect to the energy.

I have done that before … a few times now .. Loved so deeply and used the identity of certain people to increase my connection to source, to go right up all the way to heaven and bathe in the love for everything, for everyone ….

Aw, that feeling of aliveness never compares to anything. It is being in love with God personified in one identity where you can focus upon … and the devotion that comes with it … Indescribable .. devotion not to the person ..but to the energy… Burning anything inside your heart, making it so pure you become a child again in awe with every moment .. every minute.

However, back to my question… In the realm of physical, and togetherness; in the realm of flesh and bone … I’m yet to share this unstoppable force with someone that can surrender to it.

Or even to make love with one physical body and remain together .. bound by that string…

I’m not talking about sex here. Those are very different things. I’m talking about energy … about getting absolutely lost in each other and not even knowing where one begins and the other ends.. I’m talking about true connection, true love … And I’m yet concerned that maybe what I believe to be true might be just a myth of my own imagination. That this kind of connection is not possible, that humanity might not yet be ready for it.

Or maybe I am just so damned blessed and cursed, all at once for knowing this kind of thing exists, but this might be a secret to mankind; and if there are a few out there that might begin to grasp what I am really talking about … It would be nice to know they do exist.

Sacred sex, where love is the note guiding each one into the truth of each other… This is no joke, it is a ceremonial thing.  That’s how man and woman should connect, falling in love with God inside each other’s eyes …. Falling in love with life itself, contained in each other’s body. A touch so soft that could melt away any pain, any fear..

And yet where is the glue? … That brings those 2 people together to be fearless to experience the only thing worth living for?

Thanks for reading,

Sabrina Santos

Twin Flame Separation – Running From Self, Facing Fears, Healing And Transmuting Energy

So, it has been a little while since my last article about twin flames: Twin Flame Connection- What Happens When You Meet Your Counterpart In The Physical Reality. It was such a crazy intense adventure that I’m still processing what the hell happened. In fact, I’m still processing and understanding what is happening right now. It is not easy to put into words this kind of experience, because it is not logical, it does not make sense, and many people don’t understand it. In fact it would be a big pretention of mine if I claimed I understood it fully, because I don’t.

However, I have been experiencing it, and I have had the fastest growth in my life so far through it. I’m not talking about pain; I’m talking about growth about inspiration and desire to know myself, to find out my truth. I guess that’s the most beautiful thing that happens when you meet your Twin Flame, your Twin Soul. This union allows you to go within to start getting in touch with your heart with the essence of who you truly are.

Speaking of the Running Process:

I wanted to talk about the running process and how it has manifested into my experience with the Twin Flame connection. So, apparently what happens is if both twins are not ready for the reunion, not fully aligned, one of them will run. This is a very paradoxical thing, because this rejection can only happen if there is rejection  in the twin they are running from. It works like polarities. As long as one is fully balanced and harmonised, the other one should not have the crazy need to run. But it is not that practical. There isn’t much of a rule; every case is different.

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For the Twin Union to happen in this physical reality the polarities must be balanced.

What I have noticed in both sides of my Twin Flame connection is the discomfort, even though from the first time I heard him saying he loved me, and when we both started having feelings for each other, everything was magical and perfect. However, the closer it got for us to reconnect in the physical reality, the bigger the discomfort grew.

It grew because I was forced to look within myself and review, acknowledge and accept every single aspect of myself – and yes maybe I was ready for it (of course I was, or else this opportunity would not have happened). I did feel that I was not ready, that I was not doing it willingly, and it was the freaking hardest thing I have ever done. At times, it felt like pure madness. I had this intense need to run as fast as I could, but I just could not make it. Instead, I kept getting pushed closer and closer to him. It is like a magnetic pull. I can’t run, but I don’t like to stay in it either. At least I had the awareness of the whole situation to be able to observe what was truly happening.

It’s very uncomfortable being near him. Although I love him completely and accept him the way he is, even when I can see the beauty of his soul and the transparency of his humanity, independently of how he acts, I still can’t help  but to feel this discomfort near him. He triggers me and I trigger him; it is impossible not to. Even when he is nice and loving, I still feel anger, sadness and other lower vibrational feelings towards him.

What is this teaching me? Who am I really running from? What am I rejecting here?

The answer is very simple; I’m running from the truth, I am running from myself!

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 I don’t want to look within, I don’t want to understand why I have been acting this way. Or why the triggers kept setting up this atomic reaction of discomfort inside.

See, on a rational level it is very silly; I know he is a nice person, talented etc. Okay, he has faults like everyone does. The fact is he is not good nor bad. On a practical and very rational level, there should be no reason why I feel so challenged by his presence. Yet that’s not how it turns out to be.

The Twin Flame connection brings up all sorts of karmic issues for healing. It will lead you to go into a journey of Self Love and Self-understanding. In my case, it is really allowing me to find my true powers within myself. I’m learning about who I am and how to be free from any discomfort from any situation.

It’s a very big gift in disguise; I’m learning how to be totally comfortable in my own skin without the need to run from anything or anyone. I’m facing my life choices up to this point and empowering myself – acknowledging my reality has been a product of my choosing, and my learning process. I’m choosing how this reality will manifest in a way that’s aligned with my inner truth and with my soul.

Once I truly understand this, once I let go of this identity I have been invested in, once I learn about myself and fully love and accept myself, there will be no wanting to run, no discomfort, and no one will have this power over myself.

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A divine connection can never be broken – trust the process and go within.

And the truth is simple: no matter how much I love him or want to be connected with him, it doesn’t matter. This connection is divine and it cannot be broken. What matters is that I need to love and master myself, accept myself, and set myself free from the only thing capable of truly imprisoning me: Myself.

So my advice for those in this process is to truly let go, and to trust that whatever the outcome is, it will be perfect. Things are changing daily, there is so much happening on earth and if you are meant to be reunited with your twin flame in the physical reality fully and harmoniously,  if you are meant to work together in your divine connection, it will happen. But it will only happen when you let go and truly love yourself unconditionally.

Trust in the divine. It’s all happening perfectly, in the exact way it is meant to,  surrender to Love. And remember: you have the power to choose and to manifest what your heart desires.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Twin Flame Connection: What Happens When You Meet Your Counterpart In The Physical Reality

There are different levels of soul connections. Some call it soul mate and others twin flames; some of these connections are non romantic but yet are very important for our development.

However, there is one type of twin flame, the romantic one, which carries the highest frequency of all, and it’s unquestionably the most intense experience one can ever have with another human being.

As humans, we all have this deep in our DNA, encoded from the beginning of our race. When the Lemurian beings, whom were androgynous, decided to experience love and physical feelings they split their soul into two, becoming male and female. So, this blue printing is genetic as well as spiritual. We deeply long to connect with our counterpart.

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The need to find and connect with your counterpart is encrypted in our DNA from the beginning of humanity.

Many search for this, and many times the connection only happens in the spiritual level; as both souls may not be incarnated in physicality. However, when it does happen in real life, you can be prepared for the craziest, scariest, hardest, most joyful, and wonderful experience of your life.

I’m only starting to understand this as I myself have come to find my romantic twin flame in the physical world.

The energy is nearly unbearable, it is too strong, and nothing can be rationalized. The sense of Self is questioned, and a feeling of constant ego death is constantly hunting you and pushing all your limits. It’s nearly like being asked to die and be reborn every day. Let go of everything you thought you were, and give it all away to whatever is coming next.

You will notice some cycles of emotions flowing daily, and at this point I can say you have to learn how to run around the cycle until you are aware enough to stand in the middle and not engage with the negative emotions just being able to release them.

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The sun and the moon are twin flames symbols , eternal love .

So here are some practical things you might want to know about this energy:

The Cycle of Looking Into Your Own Soul

Wow, even while writing it, it sounds absolutely unbelievable. I never knew you could look into your own soul when connecting with someone else. It’s basically so intense that the energy takes over control of your whole being. So, you need to be aware of this power and treat yourself with kindness and love, and explain to all aspects of your Self that it’s fine and perfect, and allow yourself to live it.

The Cycle is practically like this – Love, Excitement, Anxiety, Panic, Sadness, Compassion.

Love : In the Love part of it, everything is the most enjoyable, perfect, pure way It feels like you never left the person and you are one; your energies are totally merged and balanced, and you complete each other equally in a non-dependable way, but on a infinite bounding that is the most familiar, save wonderful thing. We thrive on each other’s light, bathing in their energy, which is part of your blueprint. You have total trust and faith in the relationship, and nothing could separate you, not even death.images (8)

Excitement: After the love comes the excitement of having found this person and how wonderful things are, and how you want to kiss the whole world and spread love around it. You want to serve and be of use for the universe, you feel in sync and everything is heightened.  The joy pours out of you and surrounds everything you connect with or see. And even just on a vibrational level you bring out the best in everyone, and everything around you changes into the rainbow frequency. This is the highest of the frequencies, and can be overwhelming as it carries so much light.

Anxiety:  After joyfulness begins the work of clearing out old aspects of self.  The fear comes in as you realise there are no certainties in the world, and you also realise how hard it is to surrender to the feeling. You start to lose the sense of individual identity and become anxious and overwhelmed with the love you feel for this person. None of it is logical but is emotionally based, independent of the actual reality. Some cellular memories get triggered, and deepest insecurities also rise.  The questioning is endless and consumes your energy .You then start to move immediately into the next stage.

Panic: At this stage, you feel threatened and not sure of anything, and the feelings are so overwhelming that you can only think about pushing everything as far away from you as possible. You want to run and blame all the emotions on the external world; you can’t handle the light and the frequency, so you lower into this stage as a strategic move to balance. This is when Ego is fighting its best to keep a sense of individuality and to protect you from getting hurt or denying the truth of complete unity with the cosmos. Once that’s done comes the next.tumblr_nalvwbYZgU1ttzaedo1_r1_500

Sadness: After being in panic and pushing the love of your life away with all your strength, the immediate sadness takes over as you are unsure that the panic stage will actually take away the intensity of the energy. The energy changes into sadness, bringing again the longing and need to re-connect with your other half, and that’s when ego tries again to fight, because the sadness asks for you to surrender and let go of any preconceptions or sense of right or wrong. In this stage, you are asked to look into your divinity and connect with it.

Compassion: I’m at this stage; you put yourself into second and really just focus on the understanding and being compassionate of your other half with no judgments. You are able to forget all the previous stages and surrender into unconditional love to protect and cherish the other above your own needs. With that said, it’s your deepest need, at a soul level. While embracing this process, you realise how this person is a total reflection of you, and how their polarities and imperfections are a reflection of your soul as well as their light being the same light that you carry within. It takes you into the understanding of your own divinity, surrendering to the light of universal love through pure compassion and forgiveness.images (7)

Then be prepared to ride it all again, put back on your rose-tinted glasses, tighten your seat belts and get right on it.

This cycle is both very unpleasant and the most wonderful thing at the same time. It is so intense, and you have to hold on tight because it feels like walking on the edge.

Eventually, you should start getting used to the high frequencies of this energy and start to get more stable. Doing inner work over and over again until you are ready to enjoy this union fully and then start serving its purpose.

There is a reason twin flames come together, the work related to it is beyond my understanding at this stage, but I’m sure it will reveal itself soon as we both work with this energy.

My advice is just be gentle with yourself, loving with yourself, and surrender to the magic, surrender to the light, and no questioning: just be it. No expectations of the outcome, no control, just love and understanding.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

 

 

Meeting Your Twin Flame – The Task Of Knowing And Trusting In Whatever Will Be

Hawaiian Journeys Of The Heart

Some of us have heard of this term,Twin Flame. I’m still wrapping my head around it, because I really don’t know how this whole past life connection actually turns out to be in real life.

I’m a true romantic. I never hold back, and never withhold what my heart commands me to feel. This is definitely a new way of being. Although in the past I have been impulsive and have made bad choices based in all sort of mind assumptions, listening to my heart and only my heart is a way of being I’m yet to get used to.

It’s hard work not to let fear and the mind games you play endlessly against yourself get in the way of how you truly feel about someone. It’s hard enough figuring out how to live and let live when you have a strong connection with someone. Even harder is when you meet someone and realise you already played some loving role with them in the past.

It’s overwhelmingly confusing to allow just the now to tell you how you feel. It’s nearly impossible to control your heart aches and longing when you know and have seen the past and how much you once already loved someone.

Even more crazy is how the universe puts you ,once again, in front of this person. How the cosmos brings you in front of each other to find out what is hidden within,  to learn more about the mystery of Self.

I guess this time I’m a little luckier, because at last I understand more about hell and heaven than I used to. Awareness is in place and I can acknowledge karmic connections and how soul recognition works. It’s all very “intellectualized”, and people in spiritual circles know about these timeless connections.

But how does it play out? When you know it didn’t work before, when you know in past lives it was full of uncertainty, pain and even death.

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How can you just let things unfold when your whole system is craving every single cell of some other being because your whole particles remember them.

Even odder is when you barely even know this person in this current life!

See, my heart sent me on a quest to Hawaii. It commanded me to go away in search of something secret. I truly felt guided, and I went on this heart journey chosen by my soul. I knew I was going to experience something amazing. I swam with dolphins, I sang with the whales, I chilled out with turtles, I chased sharks, and I’m not speaking figuratively. I actually did those things. I followed the rainbows in the path, and I met the most amazing people. And deep down I hoped I was going to meet someone, someone who would change everything I know, that would make this trip truly enchanted. I thought hey, maybe I’ll meet my soul mate there.

As it turns out, Hawaii did have some romantic adventures and I got involved with someone truly amazing and there was love, but not the kind of love I thought I was going to find. Not the kind of love I thought my heart was after.

I made some new connections, some lovely people indeed, and when I returned to London I was very happy and I missed Hawaii and the most magical time I had ever had. The energy of the land and the secrets within it, I was truly home there and I’ll carry it with me forever.

I also thought mmm, my heart was wrong. I didn’t meet that person. I wasn’t sad, I just thought it was just not meant to happen there like I dreamed. But hearts are wise things. They know way more than they let you see.

It wasn’t even a month since Hawaii that something strange started to happen. It was slow and warm, the pieces of this puzzle started appearing right in front of my eyes. I kept in touch with someone, without really knowing why and understanding why I felt so drawn to this person.

I mean, how can you feel so much for someone you don’t even know? How can this be so very real, a feeling that triggers memory, that transcends time and space. Is this love? Is this how it’s suppose to be? Taking over all your being and playing with the vulnerability of your soul?

A small sparkle that can change over into the brightest star ever born, but at the same time so fragile and perfectly fit inside a heart.

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I knew something was happening, but I sure wasn’t prepared to find out this was my twin flame. I sure had no idea of what to do with this information nor how to feel about it.

I don’t even know if twin flames end up together or not.

In what I could see from previous lives shown to me, through visions, is that some of those encounters ended rather badly.

Not only that, this person lives an ocean across me. My mind has worked well in listing one million reasons why I should not even consider the possibility of being together or giving this a chance. But my heart on the other hand can’t have enough of the feeling he brings, so very familiar and at the same intoxicating with joy and peace as well as raising all sorts of uncertainties and old behaviour patterns.

How do you deal with love that is written in the heavens? It’s terrifying to know how powerful this connection is, and how uncertain it can turn out to be.

Have I even learned what I was meant to do in the past lives I had with him? Why is he here again? So many questions of the mind trying to aimlessly figure out what can’t really be explained but only felt.

Well I guess I’ll find out soon. Whatever happens, I can only know in my heart that I know him well and I’m ready to find out what this life has hidden for us.

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With fearless courage to love how love should be. I’m ready to find out the unknown, to touch the heavens’ secrets, and to get to know about him  here, in the present of the now.

Thanks for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos 

If you want to read more on Hawaiian tales here is another one : Embarking On A Journey Of The Heart