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When the universe talks to you.

“The Universe is always speaking to us… sending us little messages, causing coincidences and serendipities, reminding us to stop, look around, and believe in something else, something more.” _ Nancy Thayer

This life… What a mystery!

There are certain things that you can never forget… and the story I’m about to tell you is simply one of the greatest series of small weird events that I will forever treasure in my heart.

It’s really crazy if you stop to think that our very memories are what give us the definition of time itself. By bringing them up in our minds, we can relive them and bring them to our present moment.

We were in love in paradise, haha. The Philippines! To be more precise, we were in Donsol Bay.. a very remote part of Manila where technology hasn’t quite picked up the pace yet.. We went there in the hope of adventure and some whale sharks!

On one hand it is great not to have internet, no working Wi-Fi.. It’s almost as if the rest of the world doesn’t exist, but that I won’t simply account to lack of internet. When me and my loved one are together it’s almost like we are swallowed by this big bubble and the rest of the world disappears and our movie starts playing…

And oh boy! What a movie that is.

I can honestly tell you, life can be anything but boring when we are together… Even when I’m bored he starts immediately teasing me with the repetitive and constant saying: Baby are you bored, are you bored, are you bored are you bored… almost like a song he made up. And immediately the boredom disappears.

Oh Nicky, God was in a veeery great mood when he created you!

On this particular day, we had an important task… We needed to pay our hotel bill, and you would guess the good folks of Donsol would take cards… but no…  They were only accepting cash…

We were trying to figure out where to go so we could get cash from a cash point, but things were not so straight forward in Donsol Bay…

So we decided to figure it out, where and how to sort this payment situation, while all we wanted to do was enjoy our holiday and not have to worry about chasing this money.

Our first attempt was to find good working Wi-Fi… because we wanted to book our flights to Nepal which were going up every day, but for some reason the Wi-Fi in our hotel wasn’t good enough. We were recommended to try an air b and b in town that apparently had a good Wi-Fi connection.

We got in the car… Nicky siting behind the wheel. He gave me that look, with his big blue eyes, raising his eyebrows and putting up a smile without showing his teeth, as if he is about to deliver some secret message and boom, he pushes in this CD which has the craziest instrumental song, as if we are boarding a space ship and then he says: Welcome To Planet Earth!

I laughed, it was like… okay, let’s see what kind of adventures this day will bring us. The music kept on playing while I looked out the windows admiring the leaves on the trees… The different shades of green and the beautiful sunshine passing through them…

Earlier that morning, the first thing we did was to jump out of our bedroom’s balcony and jump in the water for a swim. Kissing, hugging, making love. Surrounded by coconut trees… What a way to live life, just writing about this now I get goose bumps and tears in my eyes, and this wave of love and excitement runs throughout my body.

But back to the car… Chasing this little place, looking for the air b and b and the good Wi-Fi… This experience wasn’t quite as glamorous. We found the place, knocked on the door, and this lovely lady came out to let us in with a smile on her face.

We walked in her house asking about the Wi-Fi and said it was well recommended, and if she could help us… but it didn’t look like the universe was on our side… or so we thought.

After half an hour trying and failing, we asked what options would be available for us to get cash and we started to get a little agitated. It’s funny how some things we are used to in Europe can get under our skin when in a faraway country. No working Wi-Fi… That was a no go for Nepal, or further bookings which we needed for the next step of our trip, so we then decided to focus on the next big task, which was paying our hotel bill with no working cash place in Donsol, no banks open as it was the weekend… The next step was to drive to the nearby small town.

We were both a little irritated, this time Nicky was a little more sensitive to the situation. I was trying to keep cool and calm, but of course the stress created a little arguing. We were both determined to solve the payment issue and we both wanted to solve it in our own ways. We wanted to get cash out to pay the hotel but somehow I ended up getting out of the car and he drove away. Damn, we hate arguing but yet we play this role… I was angry and wanted to walk back to the hotel and figure other options out… Nicky wanted to drive to the next town… only to remember we needed both of us to take cash out and I didn’t give him my card, plus I was kind of lost not knowing which way to walk… shame on me… I should have tried to talk things through instead of storming off… Shame on him, he should haven’t left without me… haha, I was also thinking he didn’t know where he was driving to… Because our phones’ internet wasn’t really working either, so Google maps was always going off.

The great thing is that the mobile phone carrier for calls was working, so I called him and said, “Mmm. You need to take my card with you… Can you please pick me up?” He came back, I got in the car, and we started driving.

 “Towards the next town”… Nicky thought we were heading back to the hotel, apparently our sense of direction isn’t the best….

We were both quite angry at the situation and at each other, but after getting in the car we put some very serious faces on and out of nowhere we both cracked up laughing. And somehow it became easier to look at this whole movie and to even enjoy its discomfort…

It’s funny how sometimes this happens. We might be mad and angry, but something just shifts… and the bad vibe between us is broken. Who is controlling this? How does this happen? Because in other moments, no matter how much we try we can be stuck in the bad vibe and working against each other. The truth is, no matter how much our egos are strong and stubborn, deep down in our hearts all we really want is to stay in love and connected and it’s much more fun to laugh and work as a team…

So what is in control? How does this all work? Does anyone know? I’m super far from figuring it out.

But back to our day…

Anyway… We then started to drive on this tiny road that was under construction. Only one lane was working… we were halfway up the lane when cars started to come down, making us go back…

It was quite ridiculous… It was almost as if the universe was pushing us back… And of course we were still laughing but also angry with the adversity and weirdness of the situation. Thank God Nicky is a great driver… he managed to reverse all the way back down the hill, to let all the trucks, cars, and motorbikes come down.  We waited for all the traffic and managed to drive back up, so finally we could continue our journey to the next town.

– What is this good for? Nicky asked God out loud.

We have this thing… the both of us talk to God out loud in front of each other. It did look like a great charade, a big joke from the universe.

We kept on going to finally arrive at this little town and to find out the cash point was not working at all, so we really had no option but to stay longer or try another day. We didn’t want to be in a car driving around, we wanted to be at the beach, swimming with the fishes and enjoying ourselves, but we were doing all these boring trivial things and everything was so freaking difficult.

The good thing was the little town had a supermarket, and for a miracle they accepted cards, so we thought we would buy all kinds of snacks to cheer ourselves up, plus we had no extra cash to pay for stuff in our hotel or the restaurant (which btw didn’t take cards).

So, like two little kids we started getting all the things we wanted to stuff our faces with. We went to the cashier to pay. All the shopping was placed in the paper bag and Nicky grabbed it while I finished paying.

Now the movie gets funnier. As he is walking out, the whole bag breaks and all our shopping is literally all over the street right in front of the supermarket… and what is even funnier is the fact that Nicky decided just to keep on walking forward without even looking back, rising his hands up as if to say ‘I give up’,  (yet he just left and didn’t even look back).

I really wish there was a camera filming this… everyone was looking at him and at me. I also raised my hands and said yeah this just happened! And I cracked up laughing. The packing guy in the store helped me put the stuff back into a new bag while Nicky walked back shaking his head, signalling to me that something is definitely out of order.

We made our way back to the car… and on the way there was this little game house which was an internet place! So I said: Yes! Babe, they gotta have Wi-Fi here… let’s ask…

Once again, where is a film maker when you need them?

First of all, let me give you some context…

Nicky Brouwer is a tall handsome man. Okay I don’t wanna get carried away on compliments, but the guy is hot… and very blond. I already mentioned the blue eyes, right!?  He is standing out in this little town in the middle of nowhere in the Philippines, and the fact he is very “white” is already enough to call all eyes to turn attention towards him, or to identify him as a walking cash machine (yep that happens in Asia).

I’m Brazilian… Funny enough… my olive skin and mixed European background, with a hint of indigenous tribe, gives me a kind of look of  “I could be from anywhere”, so most countries I travel to, especially in Asia,  have a question mark on their faces that asks is this girl from here? And what is she doing with this white guy?  Plus… I’m not that bad looking either…

So let’s just say there were a loooot of eyes looking at us…

So… there we were, going into this tiny internet café made out of wood, full of guys playing video games on old looking computers… We walk in and everyone starts staring. We stopped at the counter and I asked the lady: Do you have Wi-Fi?

She didn’t move… In fact she did not even blink. To be more precise she didn’t even looked at us. She was looking up at some screen so I asked again… again no reaction. I immediately started laughing. This was just too funny. Nothing was working out. Everything was weird.

And finally, after a few more seconds of awkwardness, she looked towards us and said no it’s not working… 

At this point I just relaxed and completely let go of trying to get cash, Wi-Fi, or any easy outcome…

We left the internet cafe (that had no internet), got in the car, and stared heading to our hotel.

I remember asking each other what is going on?

And as we are trying to leave, again on another tiny road (there are many tiny roads in Donsol), a car simply drives towards us.. Now things are getting totally out of control. The car was quite posh, completely black, including the windows… we could not see anything inside of it… no driver… no passengers… Nicky looked at me and said: I’m not going back… I’m gonna get out the car and talk to them.

I tell you, I was a little afraid. For all I knew it could be the Philipino mafia (if there was one, they would drive that kinda car).

I tried to ask him to stay in the car, but I was also intrigued to know who the hell was in there. They didn’t move, didn’t put the window down… It was super weird…

Nicky said he would offer them money to go back… I asked him not to… first of all, we didn’t even have enough cash to pay our hotel bill, hahaha.

But I tell you what, this scene is stuck in my memory. Nicky right next to this car with our shared wallet (the wallet we bought for our couple’s traveling money, which is pink and full of owls, with huge eyes).

Now picture this… he is out, next to this car, holding this wallet, full of owls on it, looking at a black car with black windows. We can’t see any passengers… he looks at me and at the car… nothing happens. He is about to open his mouth to say something, and then the car simply backs away.

Nicky gets back in the driver’s seat… and we drive away.

To this day, we still wonder… who the hell was driving this car?

Was it a man? A woman? Were there more people inside?

Why they didn’t say a word or open the windows?

What a strange day, full of strange situations. Who was in the car?

But when we look back at this story, we look at each other and say it was God driving that car.

Just playing with us. Showing us how this life can be so unpredictable, that things are always happening in all sorts of ways.

Sometimes we are clearly creating our movie, attracting some situations, and at other times everything is so random and unpredictable.

The universe is in constant motion. Things are always changing, emotions, situations…

Sometimes everything is flowing so well. We feel in alignment with it, with our thoughts, with the very air we breathe. It all feels like one.

But at some points things are really stuck and everything is hard… And we might feel lost…

And like in this story everything went wrong, but it became such a great funny story that we love to look back at it and it makes our travels more special and rich.

We went through a lot, me and Nicky… we had so many adventures.

And I just wonder what God would have told us if it was him driving the car. If he/she had turned the window down, what would be the words?

I would like to think the words would be “Enjoy your movie, one day you will be back here in the cosmic soup of creation and it will all be a dream… a memory… but for now, go and enjoy each other and explore this world.”

And my heart can only sigh with love and appreciation for sharing this movie with my best friend, my lover, my adventure partner …

Thank you God, for creating this opportunity to experience all this <3

Thanks for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina

5 Conspiracy Theories That Turned Out To Be True

There are types of stories called “conspiracy theories” and the people who teach them are considered by “society” as crazy fanatics who often need medical treatment. What if I tell you that “society” should take some of that medical treatment, because sometimes such incredible stories that nobody believed in, turn out to be 100% true.

What if I tell you that the doctors did not treat us, just wait until we die to cut our bodies?

1. Tuskegee syphilis experiment

In the years 1932-1972, there were a series of experiments on about 400 syphilis-infected black citizens of the United States. The study selected the poor, simple and uneducated – most of them did not even know about their illness. U.S. Public Health Service had promised free treatment to patients. In fact, they were given aspirin. The purpose of this “experiment” was to observe a progressive disease in representatives of the black race, and the scientific autopsy of deceased participants in these studies. As a result, 28 people died directly of syphilis, 100 died as a result of complications directly related to the disease, 40 women were infected by unconscious patients, and 19 children were born with congenital disease.

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 The sad truth about the Tuskegee Experiment was confirmed in 1997 by President Bill Clinton, who officially and publicly apologized to the eight surviving participants in these studies.

What if I tell you that the U.S. government itself commits “acts of terror” on its land, just to have an excuse to invade another country?

2. Operation Northwoods

In 1997, as a result of the murder of J.F. Kennedy, fifteen hundred pages of documents entitled “Operation Northwoods” were declassified. In the 60s, the United States was preparing for war with Cuba. To fire up the war machine public support was needed. In turn the defense secretary presented a paper called “Justification for U.S. Military Intervention in Cuba” so they had a whole range of interesting provocations, such as terrorist attacks involving the blowing up military bases, starting fires, aircraft hijacking, “landing” of Cuban troops , bombings, and even the sinking of a boat full of armed Cubans.

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See the full document for yourself here .

These false flag terrorist attacks were to be carried out by the CIA on a massive scale so that the citizens of the United States would feel threatened by Fidel Castro and the government had an excuse to start a war. The plan was never implemented however, as president Kennedy met with the General Lyman Lemnitzer the plan for the operation was rejected. This time it did not work …

What if I tell you that it is just about oil?

3. Nayirah Testimony

In August 1990 there was conflict between Iraq and Kuwait, mostly over oil fields as Saddam Hussein accused Kuwaitis of theft of these resources. On October 10th the whole world turned its eyes toward a fifteen-year old girl named Nayirah, who wept profusely as she talked about inhumane crimes committed by Iraqi soldiers. The young Kuwaiti was to witness the killing of more than 300 babies in a hospital. The dramatic speech touched the hearts of viewers and managed to drum up overwhelming support for the involvement of the United States in this conflict and the outbreak of the Gulf War.

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 When the battle dust settled, someone took a closer look at Nayirah. Quickly it became apparent that the sobbing girl in front of millions of viewers was the daughter of Sheikh Saud Nasser Al-Saud Al-Sabah– Kuwaiti Ambassador to the United States and a member of the royal family. The child was handed to PR whizzes – Hill & Knowlton company, where she passed a course in comprehensive acting training. It had to work out – the company bosses signed an $11.9 million contract with the Kuwaiti royal family. The task was simple — to persuade the U.S. military to take action against Iraq. Nayirah lied. This time it worked …

What if I tell you that the leading Nazi scientists got a job in the USA after the war?

4. Operation Paperclip

World War II was coming to an end and nothing more could change the situation of the Third Reich. American special forces had acknowledged that it would be a pity if some people lost their lives, especially those whose knowledge and experience could potentially serve the interests of the United States. As part of Operation Paperclip, they smuggled into the U.S. a group of gifted scientists from the Nazi rocket industry, medicine and chemical weapons divisions.

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 In the safe arms of Uncle Sam there were, among others, Wernher Von Braun (SS-man, the creator of the famous missile V-2), Kurt Blome (a doctor specializing in biological weapons, which tested their inventions on prisoners in Auschwitz) and Hubertus Strughold (“father of space medicine” who examined the effect of extremely low temperatures on the human body in camp Dachau). In total, 700 German “men of science”, found their new home on American soil.

What if I tell you that the government controls your mind?

5. MK-Ultra

It turns out that playing with people’s minds was actually done by the CIA a good half a century ago! In the 60s, thanks to the NY Times reporters, details of the MK-Ultra project came to light, which was aimed to investigate the human ability to be controlled by the use of certain chemicals, subliminal messages, electrical impulses and psychoactive substances. The project itself consisted of a number of sub-projects. For example, MK-Search was designed to create the perfect truth serum that could be used on captured Russian spies.

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They also looked into research on the practical use of LSD. Experiments were conducted on prostitutes, prisoners and people with mental illness. Often times without their knowledge or consent. One such experiment was to give the drug to seven volunteers continuously for 77 days … Among the substances, with which the CIA dealt was also amphetamines, psilocybin and mescaline. They also experimented with hypnotic seances. When information about MK-Ultra was released to the public, a number of committees of inquiry were established and this research was formally and publicly condemned.

It is often said that the infamous project was one of the factors which resulted in the generation of the hippie movement. Ken Kesey – author of “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest”, as a volunteer, was participating in one of the experiments, prepared by the CIA. The effect of LSD on the human mind intrigued the writer so much, that he became one of the first proponents of the use of psychedelic drugs in the context of recreation. Another member of psychedelic experimentation was Robert Hunter of the Grateful Dead…

We know that these theories turned out to be true. And how many more are waiting to be revealed? There are some people who do a lot to hide the truth.

Thanks for reading,

Love and Light,

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