So, it has been a little while since my last article about twin flames: Twin Flame Connection- What Happens When You Meet Your Counterpart In The Physical Reality. It was such a crazy intense adventure that I’m still processing what the hell happened. In fact, I’m still processing and understanding what is happening right now. It is not easy to put into words this kind of experience, because it is not logical, it does not make sense, and many people don’t understand it. In fact it would be a big pretention of mine if I claimed I understood it fully, because I don’t.
However, I have been experiencing it, and I have had the fastest growth in my life so far through it. I’m not talking about pain; I’m talking about growth about inspiration and desire to know myself, to find out my truth. I guess that’s the most beautiful thing that happens when you meet your Twin Flame, your Twin Soul. This union allows you to go within to start getting in touch with your heart with the essence of who you truly are.
Speaking of the Running Process:
I wanted to talk about the running process and how it has manifested into my experience with the Twin Flame connection. So, apparently what happens is if both twins are not ready for the reunion, not fully aligned, one of them will run. This is a very paradoxical thing, because this rejection can only happen if there is rejection in the twin they are running from. It works like polarities. As long as one is fully balanced and harmonised, the other one should not have the crazy need to run. But it is not that practical. There isn’t much of a rule; every case is different.
What I have noticed in both sides of my Twin Flame connection is the discomfort, even though from the first time I heard him saying he loved me, and when we both started having feelings for each other, everything was magical and perfect. However, the closer it got for us to reconnect in the physical reality, the bigger the discomfort grew.
It grew because I was forced to look within myself and review, acknowledge and accept every single aspect of myself – and yes maybe I was ready for it (of course I was, or else this opportunity would not have happened). I did feel that I was not ready, that I was not doing it willingly, and it was the freaking hardest thing I have ever done. At times, it felt like pure madness. I had this intense need to run as fast as I could, but I just could not make it. Instead, I kept getting pushed closer and closer to him. It is like a magnetic pull. I can’t run, but I don’t like to stay in it either. At least I had the awareness of the whole situation to be able to observe what was truly happening.
It’s very uncomfortable being near him. Although I love him completely and accept him the way he is, even when I can see the beauty of his soul and the transparency of his humanity, independently of how he acts, I still can’t help but to feel this discomfort near him. He triggers me and I trigger him; it is impossible not to. Even when he is nice and loving, I still feel anger, sadness and other lower vibrational feelings towards him.
What is this teaching me? Who am I really running from? What am I rejecting here?
The answer is very simple; I’m running from the truth, I am running from myself!
I don’t want to look within, I don’t want to understand why I have been acting this way. Or why the triggers kept setting up this atomic reaction of discomfort inside.
See, on a rational level it is very silly; I know he is a nice person, talented etc. Okay, he has faults like everyone does. The fact is he is not good nor bad. On a practical and very rational level, there should be no reason why I feel so challenged by his presence. Yet that’s not how it turns out to be.
The Twin Flame connection brings up all sorts of karmic issues for healing. It will lead you to go into a journey of Self Love and Self-understanding. In my case, it is really allowing me to find my true powers within myself. I’m learning about who I am and how to be free from any discomfort from any situation.
It’s a very big gift in disguise; I’m learning how to be totally comfortable in my own skin without the need to run from anything or anyone. I’m facing my life choices up to this point and empowering myself – acknowledging my reality has been a product of my choosing, and my learning process. I’m choosing how this reality will manifest in a way that’s aligned with my inner truth and with my soul.
Once I truly understand this, once I let go of this identity I have been invested in, once I learn about myself and fully love and accept myself, there will be no wanting to run, no discomfort, and no one will have this power over myself.
And the truth is simple: no matter how much I love him or want to be connected with him, it doesn’t matter. This connection is divine and it cannot be broken. What matters is that I need to love and master myself, accept myself, and set myself free from the only thing capable of truly imprisoning me: Myself.
So my advice for those in this process is to truly let go, and to trust that whatever the outcome is, it will be perfect. Things are changing daily, there is so much happening on earth and if you are meant to be reunited with your twin flame in the physical reality fully and harmoniously, if you are meant to work together in your divine connection, it will happen. But it will only happen when you let go and truly love yourself unconditionally.
Trust in the divine. It’s all happening perfectly, in the exact way it is meant to, surrender to Love. And remember: you have the power to choose and to manifest what your heart desires.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light,