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The Gift Of Death

“I learned that every mortal will taste death.But only some will taste life”

_Rumi

The life we live is a gift but can we see it as such?

Yes we can, and yet  at times all we can see is pain.

That’s part of life, that’s actually part of its mystery and its magic. It is through pain we grow and learn how to hold more love, more light. Becoming better human beings; more compassionate, humbler of how little we know.  Learning to be appreciative of the beautiful moments we have in this planet.

Looking at the bodies burning in the cremation grounds, in the sacred land of Nepal, is definitely an experience that I will never forget and with no doubt I wish to return to that place so many more times…

Pashupatinath Temple , Kathmandu

Why?

You might be thinking it’s such a morbid thing to do, but actually somehow that gives me great hope in humanity.

We act as we are invincible, but we are so fragile. Our lives can end at any moment and when I sit down and look at the fire consuming those bodies that are becoming ash, going back into the cosmic soup .. that’s when I truly value being alive in my own body.

My life can be told in so many different ways… I can choose to tell you all about my pain and my suffering, all the heart breaks, all the childhood trauma … and yes I do honour those moments that made me grow, that shaped me into such person that I am today.

I can also choose to tell you about the times I lost myself in that darkness and I wished for my own death … that I felt so alone and abandoned that it felt as my own essence was broken into a million pieces…

But today I tell you this story…

Yes, I can say to you I have not yet meet a human being that has not gone through this deep sense of being lost. We all have it. We make the most to hide it from others and from ourselves especially.

So this is how I will make good use of my words to empower myself and others. Like in the four agreements book, one of my favourites reads. You can use the word to create your life, your own reality. By the way you use this power, the power of the word, in the way and how you tell your story to others… Every time you choose pain and guilt, every time you portray yourself as a victim, you create more of that.

However, when you put yourself in a place of understanding, love and compassion, that my friends is true empowerment.

So the words I’m using here are to set myself even freer, to expand my soul. To look at death as the greatest gift, that makes me time after time appreciate being alive even if there were moments in which  I completely lost myself.

There is something, somehow, something within that keeps coming back up and pointing the way, bringing back all the love a, all the light , all the purity of my heart.

To wish for a better life, a better world, to create from a better place.

It’s okay to choose the same lover 1000 times even if you had your heart broken twice as much, it’s also okay to let them go and let God bring you new love … As long as you keep believing, having faith, growing, cherishing life, cherishing the treasures of your own heart.  Every choice you make is fine, you can keep on choosing anew everyday as long as you are choosing from a place of love, of truly living.

What does being alive means???

It is not just simply moving around in the body, doing things, waking up, going to work, being on auto pilot.

No, that’s existing!

Being alive means courage!

What is courage?

Courage is acting from a place from the heart.

This might be a hard explanation, because if you heart is closed … even if you are not coming from your thoughts you are in trouble … if you heart is closed, all you feel and do is coming out of survival, out of defensiveness, out of separation.

But when your heart is open nothing can hurt you, you come from a place of love, acceptance, inclusiveness. And although it might be frightening to make choices and be courageous and expose your heart to new hurts, what type of life would you rather live?

A sterile safe life, on auto pilot?

Or a life that gives you light in itself?

How do you express yourself? Is it from a place where you want to be seen doing what you “think” is right? Acting in a way in which the people around you will approve your choices?

Or is it from a place from true authenticity?

From a place of fulfilment and expansion?

From a place of true connection…

And what is true connection anyways?

Very few humans have the opportunity to experience that.

Everyone is so cover up with all types of masks, pretending acting in certain ways that is so rare when people truly connect showing al their vulnerability to one another.

Who are you here to impress?

Is the people around yourself? Your family?

Or is it your soul, your own heart?

I tell you, living from this place is almost impossible, it can be so volatile and you feel so exposed…

But that is living. That for me, in my own way of experiencing this life, that is being alive!

Listening you own heart and your soul, instead of listening to all the noise around you.

Keeping that strong knowing in your heart that all you have to do is nurture this inner connection.

So while I sit, looking at the burning bodies in the cremation ground, becoming ash. I tell myself: I will live and walk this path my own way. I will make choices that make me feel truly alive even if they absolutely sound insane to others, I will choose from my heart.  Then I will let go and let God guide me and show me the way.

With pure trust in that wisdom, the wisdom within, the wisdom of the universe.

Now I invite you to contemplate about your own life. To watch the end … To remember the gift of now. To cherish what is really important and to not waist any minute of your life living in fear because then you are already dead.

And because life is such an amazing adventure I will be taking some of my students/clients to Nepal so stay tuned or get in touch for more information.

Thanks for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Full Documentary: Ayahuasca – The Mirror Of The Spirit

“João Meirinhos created a compelling and sublime documentary that reaffirms the power of the world’s greatest traditional medicine, ayahuasca. Assembling an impressive cast of traditional practitioners, aficionados and western converts, ‘Mirror of the Spirit’ bubbles like the brew itself to reveal the essence of the ayahuasca experience. And, like the ayahuasca vine, it entwines the viewer with an authentic and compelling message that is hard to resist.
Grounded in strong ethnographic roots, ‘Mirror of the Spirit’ captures the spirit of this eclectic mix of contributors all of whom have been transformed by the power of the medicine in a myriad different ways. Once again we are reminded that the message of ayahuasca is more relevant today than at any point in our history.”

Research questions:

– Why are, nowadays, mostly foreigners interested in going through the harsh processes of shamanic initiation?
– Do Western and Amazonian shamans share the same cosmological views about the possibility of life after death?
– Has the replacement of religious beliefs for science, reason and capital left a metaphysical void in modern societies?

Thank you for reading and watching,

Love and Light,

Eddie

Current Energy Update – Eclipse Stillness – New Moon Adventure

Greetings!

What did just happen ? We are already halfway through september and the last few days just flew by. We just went through an eclipse portal and a new moon on the same day, which is an auspicious time for another Rebirth.  What does that mean ?

The eclipse and the new moon energies are, of course, beautifully working in synergy. How I see them is the polarity of ” death” and “birth” creating the “rebirth.” Rebirth is clearly a theme of the moment. Let me explain my feeling on how these seemingly opposites are divinely facilitating this rebirth process and how this inevitably may not only affect us, but every single atom in creation, especially the Earth evolution.

I feel the eclipse energies as breaking down the old; breaking down old patterns, old ways of being, of thought patterns, old dysfunctional energy between individuals – old relationship patterns, stored emotions on a cellular level and pretty much anything you can think of as old and no longer serving the highest good. This is the ultimate transmutation. By that I mean that it goes straight to the core, to the deepest corners of of our beingness and rips all the old masks and dysfunction from there. I see it as clogged, foggy, illusionary energy. You might have experienced it before, there are layers.

When that energy is being completely transformed, you are experiencing true metamorphosis – “the death,” and “birth.” Fear not, in fact, fear nothing. The term “death” is metaphorical, many have called it “dark night of the Soul. ” Although that is probably not the best term. It’s simply a soul-human metamorphosis.  You might be more guided to go inward more often during these moments and when we live aware in the present, that comes naturally. But we might still feel a lot more inclined than usual to just shut all the outside noise and precisely focus on the voices within. As always, let your heart be the guide. Each journey is unique.

As we have the eclipse stripping away the old, we have the new moon in Virgo helping us create the new. That includes doing some “gardening, ” as in planting seeds for the next phase, anchoring the new waves of light that are currently coming in, getting some clarity about what we really want to create and because it’s a new moon in virgo, the intentions are going to be more specific, precise, focused.

At the same time, we must be flexible and open to script changes. Jupiter and Neptune opposing each other will help that. Set the intentions and let the Universe take care of the details, using your preferable ways of doing that and let it all unfold. This doesn’t mean being passive. The universe brings all the opportunities to you to move forward on your path, to grow and to expand, but it won’t do it for  you. You are the one who needs to empower and love yourself enough to take action towards manifesting your dreams into your current physical reality. Know that everything always reveals itself to you at the right moment, reflect on past situations and how it all worked out as it was supposed to, in alignment with your highest path and deepest Soul growth process.

We do not need to know all the details because, first of all, that would be so very boring and secondly, it would change things, it would affect our growth in ways that would counteract our expansion.

So, you see, as the eclipse energies are asking us to go inward, to cultivate stillness either from the noise of the environment or our own non-stop thinking, while the new moon in Virgo is bringing with it a sense of adventure, new beginnings, the next phase of our Soul purpose. The “polarities” are unifying and working harmoniously for the highest good of all.

free-spirit

At the end of the day, all we need to do is surrender and flow with the changes in the moment, however that moment looks like. The waters might be turbulent at times, it might seem like we lose ourselves at one point. In truth, we never lose ourselves, we lose old perceptions of ourselves, old expressions of ourselves that no longer serve us. Let them go, don’t hold onto them. Those troubled waters wash away the old, it assists with the purification of our beingness on more levels. When we’re navigating the troubled waters, it might not always be fun, but it can be as well. We can only try to do our best – to maintain our equilibrium, observe, detach from drama, even from our personal drama. When you see it for what it is, it dissolves. It’s like turning up the lights in a dark room. The darkness in the room dissolves in the presence of the light. Same for drama, when you observe it, it dissolves.

Instead of focusing on the drama, focus on what you really want to create. No, but really, read again – focus on what you really really want to create. Practice this every moment. It’s actually a lot harder than it sounds, as our Soulful creation state is constantly being challenged by outer distractions, or we are purposely (yet most likely unconsciously) distracting ourselves from what we really want to create. Focused Soul intentions are powerful and that is the gift these Virgo energies are activating within us.

Rebirth is to be celebrated. With each rebirth, we become more and more our authentic soul source self as a human and less the expression we used to experience duality/the grand illusion. I feel this could possibly be one of the most profound transmutation wave we’ve experienced so far.

Once again, bring your presence in the moment. The main message is: embrace the moment as it is, for it is all exactly as it should be. When we see the bigger picture, or at least a bigger picture than what we’ve been used to so far, we realize that all is exactly how it should be and all divinely orchestrated.

Rejoice! These are wonderful moments. Simply learn to dance to the rhythm of the stars.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Eddie