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Breaking Up Addictions

Addiction: noun _ The fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance or activity.”he committed the offence to finance his drug addiction”Synonym dependency, dependence, craving, habit, weakness, compulsion

The word addiction carries a negative energy; it’s seen very badly. It’s equal to losing control over something. But it’s also mis-seen by humanity.

See, addiction can get confusing. People tend to really attach this word to drugs and bad actions, and forget to look into it in detail. What is an addiction? What can we be addicted to? And, most importantly why are we addicted to something? What is it that we are trying to avoid so badly that we must obsess about something else to avoid facing it?

Why are we so committed to distracting ourselves from dealing with the truth?

Even spirituality can become an addiction, everything that’s an imbalanced behaviour is equally destructive. It isn’t until we understand the extreme importance of Equilibrium and Harmony in every aspect of our lives that we can really break through all sorts of addictions.

Addictions to affection, to attention, to TV , to drugs, addiction to foods..

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What is your drug?

It’s definitely a subject for much consideration. As with many things, we think substituting a negative addiction for a more acceptable one is fine. But, in truth it can be equally bad for oneself and those around.

Addictions get in the way of connecting to the all. They blind us, trapping us into self-limitation, We can’t experience the true flow of abundance when we are trapped in compulsive behaviours.

Recently, I have read how Ayahuasca has been a powerful addiction eradicator. How people whom have really bad addictions such as drugs, from heroine, cocaine and crack to cigarettes and alcohol, have managed to find balance within such destructive patterns.

I can only speak from self experience and how my own addictions have shifted and are still shifting. I can say the transformation is definitely happening.

 I could speak of miracle stories of people I know, but I wanted to focus on the simplicity.

I want to focus on the magical letting go thing that happens when you surrender to going within. I know each one of us has their own unique and sacred journey to follow. However, I wanted to raise the fact that switching addictions is also not a healthy behaviour.

I speak from my own experience. After my Ayahuasca experience, some of my addictions were showed to me while I crawled through hell. I understood that drinking alcohol is a major distraction, and that it allowed me to escape from finding out more about what I was escaping from.  Taking recreational drugs was the next level of escaping. It was like pressing some sort of pause button to not have to deal with whatever I was hiding from myself.  I already wanted to drop those addictions. I say addictions not because I would do them over and over again, but because I’d do them to escape from something. Every time I took drugs it was more obvious how I was avoiding dealing with myself. And how much I hated the fact that I would still choose to do get drunk or high, even though this cycle only created more pain and un-faced issues.

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Why are we so scared to look within and find out about who we truly are?

We all have demons, and it’s much easier to go by avoiding dealing with one’s darkness. Luckily, all those changes I have been through, including the death of my dear brother Leonardo, were part of a transformational path that is taking place.

While Ayahuasca shook me into realisation, Kundalini Yoga was also a major technology that allowed me to drop addictions. I stopped drinking alcohol or taking any recreational drugs and it gave me a chance to see my relationship with it.  My destructive relationship of self-avoidance. It set me free to rise and go within.

It brought out many other addictive behaviour patterns such as co-dependency with intimacy, attention seeking, anger outbursts and many others, which are things I’m still working daily on.

I guess the most important thing is really awareness to be able to observe, so you can have an understanding of why you do this and how it affects you.

I truly encourage you to do some self-exploring, and with kindness look into your addictions. And ask the questions: what am I running from? What is the avoidance I’m trying to hide with this habit?

Ask yourself for guidance, meditate and go into your heart, ask this wise best friend for help. Let it show you. Let it teach balance. Set yourself free to flow in abundance of all life’s gifts, and let go of limitations and embrace things your heart feels is your truth. Open yourself to unconditional love, say no to duality and separation. And, equally important, forgive yourself for every addiction you had, because they were part of your teaching, you chose to experience them to  help you unleash the power within you; the power you hide so well not even you can see.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos