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In this video, Sabrina reminds us of the importance of taking responsability for our energy, our actions, our creations and our general state of being.
As she says:
” We create our reality as a a reflection of our inner world. By understanding how we are that reality at all times and taking responsibility for our creation we can merge into the experience by seeing ourselves as part of this experience.
Being responsible for your experiences allows you to understand and shift your experiences, as you can become them rather then reject them and see yourselves as a victim of situations. By empowering yourself you can learn why you are living this reality in the first place and choose what to create next. “
Thank you for reading and watching,
Love and Light,
I have heard people say many times: “ You can choose your friends, but you can’t choose your family”. Haha! It makes me laugh because there was a time I used to think this was true, time long ago when I didn’t realise every sing aspect of my life has been chosen and accepted as well as created by me. We choose everything we experience, especially our family and friends the closest people to us the and even the ones passing by on the street, they are all part of our creation.
Some people don’t realise how truly connected everything is. Every single thought is creating a ripple and reflecting back to us what our internal world is creating. But why would I believe that when it is much easier to take no responsibility for what I am experiencing ? It’s much easier to pass the blame onto others, to put yourself in a position of victimization and blame the world and the big bad things that are happening around the planet onto others. Truth is you are also responsible for creating it. Each one of us is.
There is a theme happening now. And the theme involves family and loved ones. But in particular, family. Many people have experienced huge shifts in 2015 and those shifts have created a new way of being, it has raised the energetic grid in the planet so those touched by divine energy are now pushed to “do the work”. Talk the walk is no longer an option, you who are awakening, yes you , it’s time to walk the talk , over and over , test after test until you are fully embodying your talk walking it daily , staying in you truth and being the light you already know you are.
So, to start the year nothing better than going back to your foundations and nothing best than the family you chose to be born in for your earthly training. Yes, before you incarnated you choose every single one of your family members so you could work together , learn lessons and grow as a human being .
Overcoming any challenges between you and your parents, cleansing ancestral karma is happening in this first part of the year for some. You amight be called to come clean and clear to practice unconditional love with your family; to be an example, to show the light within you with confidence and bliss; to be able to go through uncomfortable situations with divine grace and to be able to see right through the illusion and understand everyone is coming from love all times.
Yes, you lightworker, starseed, whatever “terminology” you choose, you who know in your heart what unity consciousness is. You who know God, who see God in everything, all aspects of creation; you, who know you are everything and nothing. It’s time to practice this teaching with your family and to be a wayshower.
It’s time to release old ancestral karmic constrains. It is part of your work to be a beam of light into your lineage, to restore more divine essence to flow within the planet. As we ascend we got to let go of so much. And with that, what is no longer serving you and your ancestors is going to come up to be released. Do not be afraid it is time to allow this to be gone. All the pain and suffering is not longer needed , but it must to be released. For that it must be faced , it must be understood. You will have to see it for what it is .. a story that is helping you to find your way back to your divine essence.
So be your parents, put yourself in their perspective. Allow yourself to see your whole family perspective and the role everyone has played into your life , into your story, into your learning. See beyond that. See the deep love they share for you beyond their own comprehension, see the love you feel for them beyond your comprehension. Be this love . Let go of all the story and be in the present, be the love you are. Understand you are the creator of your reality and your family is a key part of that. Shifting all your family’s ancestral interactions and clearing this karma is part of your journey. To understand the whole process, or even if you don’t understand, just trust it has all been there for you to experience love beyond any rational explanation. Become this love, walk the path of love, be the light you are, even in the darkest moments, even when you’re experiencing your shadows be love at all times.
It’s time to start reflecting your learnings on the outer, walking the truth within through a new way of being, the way of Love, expressing the love you are in all aspects of your life.
Thanks for reading,
Love and Light,
*Featured Image and body image by Alex Gray
“We are not our bodies, our possessions or our careers. Who we are is divine love and that is infinite.” _Dr. Wayne Dyer
Oh, poor you if you haven’t found divine love as you haven’t yet lived the universal truth. Oh, poor you if you have found divine love you are doomed to nothing else other than surrendering to it and renouncing everything there is, as for divine love will be all you can see.
Why do I say this? It’s a metaphor of course, the term “poor you” used above is subjective, we are not poor creatures , we are divine powerful beings living on earth and victimization takes you nowhere. But if you are on the path of divine love and if on this path you are experiencing the Twin Flame relationship, well, you are brave!
Brave, because you decided to know Love , and as you know Love is God. So you choose to meet God walking the path by connecting divinely with your Twin Soul counterpart.
The fact is, there is not much true wisdom or real knowledge about twin flames. There is only a grasp of it. The twin flame road is new and overwhelming, there is no guarantee, no safety, only surrender, forgiveness , understanding; even when there is no logic or reason. There is only infinite giving and hoping you are keeping your sanity throughout it.
I can only speak from my own experiences and for what has been shown to me this year. Coming from multiple lives memories , coming from connecting to my soul and divine essence in the physical presence of my twin. I’m starting to understand a little better what the twin flame means to me, which does not mean will be the same for you. We are all the same but our learnings, our paths are not; so you might have chosen to experience this in a different way . Nonetheless, let me share my personal learning and you can see if it resonates with the divine truth of your heart and soul.
Me and my twin are separated at this moment after a crazy year and so much spiritual madness and extremely fast growth we are no longer talking. I used to live in London and he lives in San Francisco. We met in Hawaii in April this year, if you want to know more of the background you can read about it in these twin flame articles here:
Anyway, since I met my twin my whole live changed. It was fast intense and oh dear, did I put a fight?! I did not want to give up everything, change everything overnight to follow my heart blindly with no guarantee of a secure union. I was told by all my spirit guides , by my higher self, by his Higher Self .. I was told numerous times that he is the one and that I had to leave it all to find him. But still parts of me insisted in fighting in not wanting to accept it, because him, my ego, always had the idea of love to be different from what love actually is.
It took me a while to embark 100% and follow all my inner guidance. It took me months of understanding that blaming him for any troubles or difficulty was very selfish and that I was not taking responsibility for my choices . Because the truth is, all I experienced was a reflection of my inner state. And even so I did it, I left London and went all the way to the Pacific Coast just to be near him, even when he made clear he wasn’t ready or sure about me.
Haha, I thought I was ready! But clearly I still have plenty of work to do. Because every time he rejected me it was my soul telling me I’m still rejecting myself. He reflects me I reflect him. It’s the twin dynamic.
See, I had all this played out in my mind: I’ll go there, I’ll give up everything, I’ll do my part and if he doesn’t want me this is it; I will not wait for him. I’ll move on with my life, my journey and open my heart to someone worthy of my love. Haha, I have to laugh because that was so naive of me. To believe I already had the answers in case things did not go my way or as planned (and even worse to believe certain people are more worthy of love than others, there is no such thing we all are the same).
Besides, I have been so tired going through this whole twin flame madness. If you are on this path you know what I’m saying. It’s exhausting at times. I even asked myself why can’t I just have a normal loving relationship, why did I choose this crazy multi dimensional , multiple life time eternity non-sense ? Why ? Why ? But hey, we are on 5th dimensional templates now so playing the victim will just make you feel worst, so stand up straight, honour your soul choice and live it gracefully. Get ready and start doing the work you signed up for. Start learning how to love yourself , how to be in harmony with the whole universe, how to see God in everything you look at, how to be God every single day of your life.
To be God you must be Love , and to be love you must surrender to it. If you heard about ego death and self love this can be very confusing because love will take all you have . It will teach you to let go and to desire it with the purity of your soul. It will bring you back to unity with God and teach you what you are.
I won’t get in details of my personal drama with my twin flame , I’m writing a book on the subject and I don’t want to bother you now with the drama. Because there is plenty of drama in the twin journey. I am, however, going to share what the ultimate learning I was taught trough my twin flame interaction.
So, imagine this scenario, pretty much everyone I have spoken to have told me to let go, to move on, to forget about my twin, he needs to do work (well, we both need to do work) by himself. Even my higher self has told me now is time to be apart. However, the pain from being separated from him and now, not even talking to him, is ridiculously bad. Bare in mind, I already tried everything to get rid of him .. and nothing has worked, he is with me ! Yes, daily. His energy is with me all the time, from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to bed I feel his energy. It was driving me crazy I wanted to be alone and push him away but there is nothing I can do. Fighting makes it harder; so I started to accept, to surrender to be kind to him and to his energy around me. Even though he, in the physical world, wants me as far away as possible from, his spiritual energy is with me.
The last few times we met in the physical world it was totally “coincidental” ( and also a total disaster) I thought he was away and even though when I was approaching the area my whole system started to shift. My heart chakra started vibrating like a crazy buzzing siren, I was sick to my stomach and I kept on telling myself to calm down that he was not in the same state, he was meant to be away. but after grounding and keeping my centre, 5 mins later he walks in the room and boom, there he is present in flash teaching me to trust in my senses. At this point I was already trying to avoid meeting him in the physical reality, trying to respect his wishes of being away from me. But the universe has it’s own agenda and at times we are absolutely unaware about those.
The fact is, this twin journey is not meant to be fully understood, faith is not understood, it just is, you believe because you know in your heart not because you need an explanation of it, you love because you do, you don’t need a motive, a personality, a reason, you just do . Love just is .. there is no need to understand or explain it. Besides, in the 3d reality, our mind is not very good at understanding multi-dimensional truths, so sometimes all you can do is to watch and not judge – not attaching any explanation to it.
So, things got even more chaotic between me an my twin. He always told me I made him sick, I didn’t quite understood that, until I felt sick myself, physically, about to throw up just before encountering him (without knowing he was about to enter the room). It was so hard to accept that all I can do is to go away from him and work on myself and be patient. I mean, Jesus Christ! I freaking follow all my guidance, at least I try my best to do so. Why does it have to be so damn hard? What is the lesson I’m missing here? Why do I keep manifesting this separation ?
And then, it happened!
I left San Francisco and I went to Costa Rica. I wanted to be as far from him too. Eventhough his energy was with me in a subtle way, the thought of him coming in and out, I dream with him every single night, I hear his voice calling me, but non of this made sense, until this day on the 17th of December.
I was having a skype healing session with a great Canadian healer, Stephanie Marian. She has been very supportive and of great help in my twin flame madness journey. We were talking about emotional triggers and and I was explaining I have been experiencing loads of anger surfacing since my kundalini rising . And she was helping me to tune in to my emotions and to this incredible fear that came up. Suddenly this voice inside me started saying things about him, I didn’t want to. I was thinking this is my healing session and he is away there is no point to once again talk about all this twin flame issue I’m separated from him now bla bla bla. It’s time to work on myself! But the voice insisted. It was my inner child, screaming his name over and over and asking for him saying how much she misses him.
I slowly started to connect to her and the energy started shifting. Stephanie supported me energetically and I went in deeper and deeper. Listening to her voice as if she took over and was telling me how afraid she was of losing him, even when she didn’t even have him. It is weird, I have this huge fear of losing him! But I’m not even with him! Not in the physical world… And what the heck does this mean ?
Well, then it was like the whole room lit up, I had to close my eyes and someone came and grabbed my hand ( yes, I was “alone” in this hotel room in Costa Rica) and he came out of nowhere and grabbed my hand. I could feel it as if he was there. My whole hand went numb I could feel energy pouring inside it. I heard his voice as clear as if he was talking to me in person, out loud. My heart started to burn and open even more. The fire spread through my whole body and within seconds I could barely feel my physical body.
I knew he was there. He said: I’m in you heart! Can you feel me? I cried because it was so beautiful, yet so painful, there was a lot of pain to come out, pain I didn’t even know exited, he continued! I am always with you. Do you understand? We can never be separated there is no separation, you know we are all one but now it’s time to feel it! And I felt it, all the process ! Of divine unity. I cried and cried more, because my inner child and I were one talking to him, telling my twin I didn’t want him to leave, I wanted him to stay always with me just like that, it was so real, more real than actually being with him physically. And he said “You need to know that I am always with you. There is truly no separation. There is no need for crying nor need to feel pain .. because I am here at all times. And so is everyone , we all live inside each other’s hearts, we are all connected at all times. I’m here to show you how this feels and to remind you of what your soul essence is. “
I begged him, for him to explain why he doesn’t want to be with me in the physical world now. Because it hurts me immensely not being able to be with him in physical, and he said he will come to me , he will find me and he promised me no mater what he will do it. That all I have to do is to trust, to wait and to continue my journey of letting the divine unfold. That now it was time to understand that there is truly no separation .
My heart continued burning, my whole body melted into nothingness and he, my twin, was there, so were my soul family , star family , guides , angels and archangels all in the room with me helping me to release the pain. I cried and cried like never before I forgot about the skype session but slowly I started to grasp physical reality again.
Skye ( Stephanie’s nickname) was there. She felt the release and knew I went trough a big experience. But I’m now sharing it fully because it was so intense so real and that’s my duty. To tell you that the twin flame journey can be so magical and precious to reveal great truths of the divine, to allow you to experience the truth that there is only love and no separation . To allow you to become love.
But how do I move from here ? What happens next? Well that’s in the future. Now, I shall live one day at the time and fully embody these teachings.
I knew that love was all there is, even in the pain, even in darkness, even in ignorance. But I have never experienced it to this extent, this divine unity with my twin, even when he is not physically in my presence and the understanding that he is never ever away from me because I’m him, he is me, just like I am you and you are me.
“You are divine love expressing yourself in a human experience as a powerful creator of your own unique creation” – Tanja Christine Jaeger
Everything is love, everything is God. I am God, I’m everything and I’m nothing.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light,
It’s November and what a year this has been. So much light being showered into the planet and some of us have been overwhelmed with the energies. So much Growth, Challenges , Light , so much Love!
To assist with this transformation the Power Within Us is inviting you to join us on the 11/11/2015 at 11:11 am PST (time at Mount Shasta State of California USA) for 11 minutes.
We want to offer you assistance and connectivity, our intention is that you can anchor these energies into your core, facilitating your ascension and growth process. We want you to take full advantage of this Gateway and healing energies.
I’ve been given very direct guidance into this healing/light transmission and I will be channelling healing energy while in Mount Shasta, using the etheric field and vortex power of the mountain to anchor this energies on earth.
The healing will be taking place regardless of your concious awareness or not (that is happening automatically by the portal opened on the 11/11) , however the Ascended Masters and higher beings wanted to invite you to tune in consciously into this transmission allowing you to feel those energies of unconditional love flooding into your core.
It’s a humble invitation and all you have to do is to sit with your eyes closed for 11 min at 11:11 am (of course you can sit still longer than that if you feel guided to do so). This would be 7:11 pm GMT (London time).
To prepare for this please set your intentions and focus, allowing you to receive the highest frequencies available to you and asking them to be anchored into all your body systems.
If you don’t resonate with the word healing think of this as positive thinking and power of manifestation linked to your highest intentions for good , love and joy.
I’d also recommend you to consciously focus into your heart centre during this attunement and see it opening to this energies allowing it to flood your whole being. You can also visualise yourself placed into a Golden Merkaba of light (six pointed start – view image below).
“We want you to experience your own divinity , this is our intention.We want you to be able to experience more of your true essence, allowing you to be aware of your inner connection with the divine. This connection is always available to you and it is by intention you will be allowed to experience it into your daily life; bringing Heaven on Earth , living in alignment with your inner truth. Remember who you are dear one, you are love as for love is all there is.” _ Lord Melchizedek (Channelled message).
I hope you can make to this attunement , please feel in your heart if that is something you wish to experience consciously. Also feel free to share your experiences with us by commenting under this article.
To tune in you can simply set your intentions and sit down at the time of the attunement, close your eyes , but also feel free to send us a message with your name and the name of anyone you wish to send healing to. You can simply message us or send us an email with the names to email@example.com .
Many Blessings to all of you and Thanks for reading.
Love and Light,
“Meditation is the golden key to all the mysteries of life.” _Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
The Power Within Us proudly starts a new project in the Bay area.
We created a FREE meditation programme bespoke to individuals, because everyone is uniquely especial.
We know the journey leads to the same place but every person has been carefully crafted to bring into this world their most amazing gifts. So we want to empower you to find it within yourself. To allow the inner light of you to shine bright.
We want to bring to your awareness to the fact you already have all the tools within yourself; we want to you remember your true essence and let the Power Within You come into being.
The programme consists of different Self-empowering and meditation techniques. As well as opening space for dialogue and community. We will present to the attendees simple ways to gain clarity of mind as well as energy clearing and alignment.
A little about meditation: Meditation is a practice of concentrated focus upon a sound, object, visualization, the breath, movement, or attention itselfin order to increase awareness of the present moment, reduce stress, promote relaxation, and enhance personal and spiritual growth.
The project involves exploring each individual life’s purpose. Allowing you to have a better perspective on your journey, while giving you practical tools to self-empowerment. We will also provide mentoring from our in-house team to ensure you are getting the most out of this opportunity.
The group will take place in different parts of the San Francisco Bay area, all the details will be given to participants once they apply.
The first meet up will be taking place on Friday the 30 th of October in Point Richmond at 6:30 pm until 7:45 pm. All information, address, next meet ups will be provided to attendees who register.
If you feel guided and want to join please send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org with the subject line: Registration for Meditation Group. Also, know that registration is free, the whole programme is free of charge. Only your loving presence is needed.
You will receive more details on the programme and will be informed of all weekly meetings. The main commitment here is your intention to discover the Power Within Yourself. There are no fees , and if you can’t attend to all weeks it’s also fine , we will still provide you with an update of all that happens and all the techniques taught during the meetings.
We look forward to starting this with you!
Love and Light,
A lot of people know that one of the main signs of a Twin Flame connection is the memory of past lives together. Not only is that reflected directly in your current reality, but it is also common knowledge that until present times, Twin Flames were not permitted to stay together in the physical reality, as the light quotient of the planet and the collective wouldn’t be as high as it is now. Therefore, in past lives, things would not have ended in a very pleasant way. I guess you all know about Romeo and Juliet.. well, it’s kind of like that full of tragedy. I’ll to try to take the edge of this topic, as it is intense.
Firstly, it is important to know that only at present times, the energy allows twins to connect harmoniously in physical reality. That is because of the global changes and the process of ascension.
Secondly, Twins of all kinds have been in intensive training to bring something greater to the ascension process. It could be on an purely energetic level, working level, friendship level or as a romantic connection. The fact is that this divine union is now allowed for those twins who want to do the work.
I met my Twin Flame in Hawaii, April 2015, guided to go on a journey of the heart. I knew something important was going to happen and I wasn’t sure of what, but things started to reveal slowly and I soon realised he was my Twin Flame.
It was a bit of a shock when I had my first past life memory of me and my Twin, in fact it made things messier, because my twin is very resistant towards these ” supernatural ” explanations, so I had to keep this to myself. Nonetheless, I have been guided to write about this, as it can be of value for many Twins who, like me, want to work and heal their past relationships on all levels, and most importantly the relationship with themselves!
Yes, all this karmic drama adds to the pot and to the intensity of the energy. Even if you haven’t remembered the past life connection, rest assure that a big part of the fear and discomfort you experience while in connection with your twin is directly related to all the past lives where you two were ripped apart from each other.
Understand that you both signed up for living those experiences. That’s part of the training; it’s part of how you each trigger each other. It’s part of your growing and learning.
I’m going to give a personal example on how you can do something proactive to start healing aspects of this relationship and to ease the energy and intensity of your current life connection with your twin flame. Have in mind that this is not for everyone, that’s a part of my journey and I have been guided to share it.
Basically, while in meditation, I was told by my Higher Self that I was to go back in time and heal all my relationships. There are various ways of how you can do this. Let your intuition guide you. You can do it by yourself, or with the help of a healer. I have been working on both levels, in fact, even while dreaming. My intention is so strong that the healing is happening on all levels, at a deeper cellular level too.
While in Glastonbury, 8th of August 2015, I received a healing where my Higher Self guided me to specific events back in time and showed me exactly what had to be healed. In this particular case I healed 3 different past lives I lived with my twin. But I’ll focus on the example of the one which I spoke about earlier in this article – the one which was my very first past life memory of me and my twin flame. I had this memory while talking to him on the phone , in the early stages of our connection back in May 2015 (I live in England and he lives in California ). My initial memories of our past lives together were connected to him and his current best friend in, and there was a lot of pain connected to it. I saw myself crying on the floor and I knew they were both there but wasn’t sure what had happened. I knew deep healing was needed.
During the healing, I was taken back in time to 1880 in America, and while remembering this life my first feelings were of joy and excitement when I realised I had just been promised in marriage to a man. My father had arranged the marriage and I was very pleased and happy as I believed it was a perfect match. I remember getting married to this handsome man and starting to have a very fulfilling life with him, full of love. Our marriage was very good for me and made me feel safe and loved. However, on a second instance I was taken further in time when the brother of the man I was married to returned from war. He was a soldier and I remember distinctly the feeling of seeing him for the first time. It was my twin flame; I had the exact same feeling as I had when I met my twin flame in this incarnation (in April 2015). Anyway, the feelings were very confusing as I had this intense pull towards my twin flame but being married to his brother I could only fight against those feelings. Once again, taken further in time my husband had started travelling for business and I was left in the company of my then brother-in-law.
I now remember clearly how we fell in love back in that time; we were at a city ball and he insisted on a dance. It sounds so simple it was all that it took – one dance – to have his arms around my body and to look into his eyes. I now remember everything about that moment. The lights in the room, the people fading around as we danced, and I remember the blue colours of his army uniform and the sparkle in his eyes. Most of all, I remember my heart fully opening and connecting to his. It was a magical moment. However, once again pushed further in time I was now in a mess between two brothers whom I loved. It didn’t take long between my husband’s travelling for him to realise what was going on, and in rage, in an act of madness, he killed my twin and after that killed himself. I was left crying in agonising pain, grasping over their dead bodies, with blood all around my hands from hugging and clinging to nothingness. Not much further in that lifetime I made my way to a river where I drowned myself and took my own life in deep despair.
So yes, very tragic, it was just as bad as Titanic, or another one of those crazy twin soul disasters.
Luckily, with the help of the Shaman, I was able to float around between lives and send to all this drama light and love and start the healing process, explaining to all souls involved why that had happened and why we agreed to live that dynamic.
The best part is the healing; when that’s done you re-write your past and live it in a different way. In this case, I ended up meeting my twin and marrying him, while his brother was also happily married to his counterpart. We experienced a healthy relationship full of light and love. With no drama. Once that was done I took this healed memory and placed it on top of the lifelines of each one of us involved in this memory. Very important here , replacing this did not erase all the learning and experiences of the actual life time, it only replaced the feelings and emotions healing all at a soul level, easing the intense pain and karma of all involved in this play.
Now I’m not telling you that you should go and do this, I’m simply sharing what I experienced and how healing it has been for me. The truth is that we don’t even need to go back to the past – we can do the work right here, as we all have the tools. It does shows us the understanding of how things work on a greater level and that everything we live has a deeper meaning, and that the opportunities we have now is for healing and growth in all relationship levels.
Please understand that you have the power to change everything in your reality, to heal, to manifest, to create. We all have this opportunity now more than ever to break free from our own self imposed shackles.
Of course, It is challenging, we are strong souls who have incarnated so many times on this earth. It’s very interesting how everything is so connected and how we keep reconnecting with people/souls life after life.
Funny enough the brother whom I was married to in that past life is in this life time my twin’s best friend, whom I share a great amount of love and admiration for. I met him the same day as I meet my twin .. That’s another story and I’ll be happy to tell you all about it another time.
The greater learning here was to understand that now energy is allowing twins to reconnect to remember and to heal all of that karmic mess, so we can be free and let go. So we can choose how we decide to live our lives. We are allowed to remember our soul origin sparkle shared with our twin, as well as what divine love and connection is; acknowledging how it’s played out in physical relationships between people and different life times.
We have the power to choose what we want and how to heal everything. By opening up our hearts and embracing the magnificent unknown mystical wisdom. Remembering who we truly are.
May your twin flame and all relationship connections heal you. Be brave, true strength comes from within. You are here for a reason. It’s time to heal.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light,
So, it has been a little while since my last article about twin flames: Twin Flame Connection- What Happens When You Meet Your Counterpart In The Physical Reality. It was such a crazy intense adventure that I’m still processing what the hell happened. In fact, I’m still processing and understanding what is happening right now. It is not easy to put into words this kind of experience, because it is not logical, it does not make sense, and many people don’t understand it. In fact it would be a big pretention of mine if I claimed I understood it fully, because I don’t.
However, I have been experiencing it, and I have had the fastest growth in my life so far through it. I’m not talking about pain; I’m talking about growth about inspiration and desire to know myself, to find out my truth. I guess that’s the most beautiful thing that happens when you meet your Twin Flame, your Twin Soul. This union allows you to go within to start getting in touch with your heart with the essence of who you truly are.
I wanted to talk about the running process and how it has manifested into my experience with the Twin Flame connection. So, apparently what happens is if both twins are not ready for the reunion, not fully aligned, one of them will run. This is a very paradoxical thing, because this rejection can only happen if there is rejection in the twin they are running from. It works like polarities. As long as one is fully balanced and harmonised, the other one should not have the crazy need to run. But it is not that practical. There isn’t much of a rule; every case is different.
What I have noticed in both sides of my Twin Flame connection is the discomfort, even though from the first time I heard him saying he loved me, and when we both started having feelings for each other, everything was magical and perfect. However, the closer it got for us to reconnect in the physical reality, the bigger the discomfort grew.
It grew because I was forced to look within myself and review, acknowledge and accept every single aspect of myself – and yes maybe I was ready for it (of course I was, or else this opportunity would not have happened). I did feel that I was not ready, that I was not doing it willingly, and it was the freaking hardest thing I have ever done. At times, it felt like pure madness. I had this intense need to run as fast as I could, but I just could not make it. Instead, I kept getting pushed closer and closer to him. It is like a magnetic pull. I can’t run, but I don’t like to stay in it either. At least I had the awareness of the whole situation to be able to observe what was truly happening.
It’s very uncomfortable being near him. Although I love him completely and accept him the way he is, even when I can see the beauty of his soul and the transparency of his humanity, independently of how he acts, I still can’t help but to feel this discomfort near him. He triggers me and I trigger him; it is impossible not to. Even when he is nice and loving, I still feel anger, sadness and other lower vibrational feelings towards him.
What is this teaching me? Who am I really running from? What am I rejecting here?
The answer is very simple; I’m running from the truth, I am running from myself!
I don’t want to look within, I don’t want to understand why I have been acting this way. Or why the triggers kept setting up this atomic reaction of discomfort inside.
See, on a rational level it is very silly; I know he is a nice person, talented etc. Okay, he has faults like everyone does. The fact is he is not good nor bad. On a practical and very rational level, there should be no reason why I feel so challenged by his presence. Yet that’s not how it turns out to be.
The Twin Flame connection brings up all sorts of karmic issues for healing. It will lead you to go into a journey of Self Love and Self-understanding. In my case, it is really allowing me to find my true powers within myself. I’m learning about who I am and how to be free from any discomfort from any situation.
It’s a very big gift in disguise; I’m learning how to be totally comfortable in my own skin without the need to run from anything or anyone. I’m facing my life choices up to this point and empowering myself – acknowledging my reality has been a product of my choosing, and my learning process. I’m choosing how this reality will manifest in a way that’s aligned with my inner truth and with my soul.
Once I truly understand this, once I let go of this identity I have been invested in, once I learn about myself and fully love and accept myself, there will be no wanting to run, no discomfort, and no one will have this power over myself.
And the truth is simple: no matter how much I love him or want to be connected with him, it doesn’t matter. This connection is divine and it cannot be broken. What matters is that I need to love and master myself, accept myself, and set myself free from the only thing capable of truly imprisoning me: Myself.
So my advice for those in this process is to truly let go, and to trust that whatever the outcome is, it will be perfect. Things are changing daily, there is so much happening on earth and if you are meant to be reunited with your twin flame in the physical reality fully and harmoniously, if you are meant to work together in your divine connection, it will happen. But it will only happen when you let go and truly love yourself unconditionally.
Trust in the divine. It’s all happening perfectly, in the exact way it is meant to, surrender to Love. And remember: you have the power to choose and to manifest what your heart desires.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light,
Even living under the illusion we are all being given the tools and opportunity to wake up. There are so many changes happening globally at the moment and everything is pointing to the same direction. So here is my interpretation of those changes and inner journey I would like to share with you all. It’s about facing fears and understanding why they are there , so this is what happened so far…
I’ve decided to unleash all my demons, so I can look them in the eye, one by one, I can stare at them, I can feel the pain there is inside me, just so I can heal it , just so I can try to set myself free, just so I can bare the darkness and walk right into it ,with no fear, with no doubt that the light within my heart is greater. That the light within my soul can bring love to everything I touch.
Where does this pain comes from? When will it stop? Why does it feel like it will never go away? How can I survive it? How can I stop avoiding it? How can I be free?
The current energies we are experiencing in this period are very intense, some of us who have been doing so much work on ourselves are faced with so much pain. Nevertheless, where does it come from? What is this spiritual wound? This wound that holds pain inside that we carry around or pretend is not there.
Now is the time to face the pain. We can allow ourselves to let go. To find our inner truth , our majesty.
It does takes courage to face all the pain to understand and to unleash what we have been hiding.
It’s so funny because it’s very simple. It’s all about allowing. Allowing ourselves to understand we are the ones who have imprisoned ourselves. We made all the choices. Consciously or unconsciously we invested ourselves into a role. A role that proportionated us to learn, to grow, to experience life.
It’s like we decided to put ourselves under a spell. Where our inner powers are taken away from us. The purpose of this spell is truly bring ourselves back to our origin, back to our truth. Only when we are done with all the pain , with all the restrictions and constrictions we impose on ourselves; only when we decide to master ourselves as humans and spiritual beings, as masters of our destiny , only then we can chose to be what we truly are.
Are you ready for this leap ? Or are you still happy to continue punishing yourself into playing a role that is not really for you but for everyone else outside yourself?
Are you ready to start finding out who you really are? That’s what coming home is. Coming home to Self. Coming home to love.
We are now being pulled to truly see, having this inner desire to find out what we are made of. The energies in the world are calling us to embody our divinity.
So just allow it to happen be brave , be courageous surrender to yourself , surrender to the light within. Let go. Let live. Set yourself free.
Keep going, keep evolving, keep expanding.
Love and Light,
Thank you for reading,
“You disappoint me, Gwendolyn. I hoped you might have a watt or two more light in your bulb than those poor toads that look on romance as an investment like waterfront property or municipal bonds. Would you complain because a beautiful sunset doesn’t have a future or a shooting star a payoff? And why should romance ‘lead anywhere’? Passion isn’t a path through the woods. Passion is the woods. It’s the deepest, wildest part of the forest. Everybody but the most dried up and dysfunctional is drawn to the grove and enchanted by its mysteries, but then they can’t wait to bring in the chain saws and bulldozers and replace it with a family-style restaurant or a new S and L. That’s the payoff, I guess. Safety. Security. Certainty. Yes, indeed. Well, remember this, pussy latte: we are not involved in a ‘relationship,’ you and I, we are involved in a collision. Collisions don’t much lend themselves to secure futures, but the act of colliding is hard to beat for interest. Correct me if I’m wrong.” –Tom Robbins, Half Asleep in Frogs Pajamas
A lot of people seem to be confused over what the concept “hopeless romantic” really means. It’s one of those things; like how most people disproportionately imagine they’re a “good driver,” or “smarter than most people.” It’s a particularly fascinating cognitive bias known as “illusory superiority,” whereby individuals overestimate their own qualities and abilities, relative to others. The same thing applies to the concept of being a hopeless romantic.
In order to understand what a hopeless romantic is, we first need to understand what it is not. Let’s break it down using a trifecta: between the hopeful romantic, the hope-fool romantic, and the hopeless romantic. Just remember to look through the scope of high humor, and let rest your scope of self-seriousness. And remember what Rumi said, “Love is the whole thing. We are only pieces.”
The Hope-fool Romantic:
“A man asks, “God, why did you make woman so beautiful?” God responded, “So you would love her.” The man asks, “But God, why did you make her so dumb?” God replied, “So she would love you.”” –Unknown
A great many people are hope-fool romantics because they imagine they are hopeless romantics when really they are hopeful romantics. Allow me to explain.
A hope-fool romantic is typically naïve, impressionable, and thoroughly conditioned by their particular culture’s sense of what romance means. They are taught to be invulnerable and meekly me-centered (codependent). They are unable to even fathom being vulnerable and we-centered (interdependent). Besieged by the onslaught of romance movies and Disney movies, and beleaguered by the gauntlet of love songs and sexy videos they grew up watching, these young romancers imagine they’re cool, hopeless romantics. When really they’re just conditioned to view love in extremely marginalizing, materialistic, and possessive ways.
If, as the French poet Paul Valery satirically opined, “Love is being stupid together” then hope-fool romantics have taken that advice and ran with it. In their innocence they have fallen victim to the notion that love is something that they must win, or that they must seek and eventually possess, tame, or contain. But, as Osho articulated, “Love is not about possession. Love is about appreciation.” Love is not a destination. Love is a journey. Appreciation can only come when we allow ourselves to become vulnerable enough to feel it. And that means delving into some pretty scary waters. As Rumi said, “Love is the bridge between you and everything.” But he can only show us the bridge. We’re the ones who have to walk over it.
The first scary step is learning to love yourself. Not your image. Not your reputation. Not what you imagine people think about you. But your deepest, wildest, most vulnerable self. Your inner-most core, where primordial love resides. Seek that. Love that. Start there. Then work your way up to loving everything else. Love is the medium through which courage can flow, after all. Like Lao Tzu said, “Being deeply loved gives you strength; while loving deeply gives you courage.” Indeed. Love can solve almost any problem. An act of love, the defeat of the conditional by the unconditional, overcomes everything.
The Hopeful Romantic:
“Drop the idea that attachment and love is one thing. They are enemies. It is attachment that destroys all love. If you feed, if you nourish attachment, love will be destroyed; if you feed and nourish love, attachment will fall away by itself. They are not one; they are two separate entities, and antagonistic to each other.” –Osho
Hopeful romantics make up the greater majority of romantics. They have overcome the naiveté of being a hope-fool, but only to fall into another level of innocence altogether: willful hope. They utter such platitudes as “Mr. Right” and “the one” and “knight and shining armor” and “soul mate” and “happily ever after”. They want so terribly bad that their love be a magical experience of two people meeting and spending the rest of their lives together, that they obsess about it to no end, thereby killing the magic. And yet, ironically, they still imagine themselves to be hopeless romantics. But they are so busy trying to possess love that they forget to be possessed by love. Obsession tends to lead to possession, after all. And they are all too often disappointed, typically becoming inadvertent serial monogamists along the way. Granted, there are always exceptions to the rule. But even in those cases, as the Bard said, “The course of true love never did run smooth.”
If hope-fool romantics are inhibited by the past, then hopeful romantics are inhibited by the future. They are so intent upon finding the “other half of themselves” that they forget they are already a whole person. A whole person who has yet to figure out what they’re made of. Love, if genuinely felt, is more of a fracturing anyway. Love cracks us open. It breaks open our heart. It makes us vulnerable so that another person, who is also fractured and vulnerable, can help co-create a unique love dynamic. Love tests our mettle by shattering our metal and then softening it in order to see if it can be adapted to, and then pieced together with, the shattered and softened aspects of another.
But hopeful romantics don’t understand this. They are locked in. They are dead-set on finding their “other half.” They have the cart of their longing firmly in front of the horse of their love, and then they wonder why they cannot get anywhere. Our longing should only ever trail behind us, like a cape, lest it blind the road ahead of us, like a horse cart. A road that leads to a refreshing new perspective, and a shedding of the too-heavy burden of willful hope. Like Mark Booth cryptically articulated, “Deep inside us there is a self-loathing that prevents us from living wholly in the moment, from living life to the full. We cannot truly love or be loved until the insect-like carapace is cut open by the agonizing process of initiation. Until we reach this point we don’t know what life is meant to be like.”
The Hopeless Romantic:
“The only way of loving a person is to love them without hope.” –Walter Benjamin
Being a hopeless romantic is a quality, a way of being in the world with an equal parts mindful/no-mind disposition toward life. A way of appreciating what we have, balanced with the counterintuitive ability to let it go. Hopeless romantics understand that the only viable option for love is for it to be in a state of creative non-attachment, holding on sufficiently enough to not fall apart, but letting go enough to allow space for human flourishing. Love must not obsessively attach and it must not obsessively detach, but it must do both if it would live forever. Like Dawna Markova said, “I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which came to me as seed, goes to the next as blossom, and that which came to me as blossom, goes on as fruit.” And so it is with hopeless romantics. They are not bound up in the hope of love, rather they are unbounded by the freedom of love being what it is meant to be. Indeed. As anywhere else in the universe, the hopeless romance trumps the hopeful one.
Being a hopeless romantic is embracing the Apocalyptic Love Story. It’s being all in, filled to bursting with the beautiful tragedies as well as the ugly joys of life. It’s riding the hurricane of love like the beautiful wild beast that she is. It’s embracing vicissitude. It’s falling in love with love itself. The highest to which mankind can attain is love. And so a hopeless romantic contents themselves to be in love with love. They are love. They understand that true love is the absence of striving for love; it’s the presence of being Love. It’s a deep, all-consuming cosmic love that subsumes the slings and arrows of unexpected change. Like E.E. Cummings said, “Love is the voice under all silences. The hope which has no opposite in fear; the strength so strong mere force is feebleness: the truth more first than sun, more last than star.”Hopeless romantics are the ones dancing the wonderfully-terrible and tragically-beautiful dance between “first sun” and “last star.” Their love shrinks or expands in proportion to their ability to let it be free. And so let it be free they must, riding it without hope, without expectation, without dogmatic belief or a self-serious disposition. On bated breath they surf, rolling with the tragic pounding of the waves, but rising with the romantic sounding of the Phoenix’s courageous call.
The hopeless romantic is the Never Not Broken Goddess within us all, shattering in order to feel more, courageously breaking apart in order to become absolutely vulnerable, and then piecing herself back together again in order to become spiritually and existentially robust. Like David Whyte beautifully articulated, “I want to know if you are willing to live, day by day, with the consequence of love and the bitter unwanted passion of your sure defeat. I have read, in that fierce embrace, even the gods speak of God.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light,
I know what I’m about to get myself into .. This is not an easy subject and it’s going to raise all sorts of questioning.
When it comes to taking drugs there is so much duality, self-harm, lack of control, and also a need to connect with something.
I have seen both sides of this spectrum, not only in my own experiences but also in many other people around me in London and all over the globe to be fair.
It’s rather hard for me to fully understand the difference between taking drugs to escape , or drugs to enhance an experience or to do inner work.
When it comes to taking the so called “plant medicines” to heal aspects of Self it all reflects to a search of healing and connecting to Mother Nature. And yes it does work. Mother Ayahuasca is a very powerful tool to unlock so many blockages, to actually get rid of addictions and to look within the depths of Self . It can allow you to connect to the unity of all , it can slow down the mind .. It can also drive you crazy if you are not ready for this jump into other dimensions.
But the question I have in mind is what is the difference? If you are taking MDMA for “fun” or to open to the feeling of unconditional love? What makes a non-synthetic medicine more valid than a synthetic one?
What is the difference? Is it in the mind? Or in the way it’s taken?
Intention sure plays the main part when it comes to anything we do in life, and in any Shamanic ceremony, intention will too play a key role when it comes to healing.
There is so much judgment when it comes to drug taking, but what are people who take drugs looking for?
What are they after?
In a world where many have lost their connection to the divine, drug taking is a cry for help allowing humans to look into a glimpse of their own divinity and to get closer to the collective consciousness. Yes, it can be a magical thing, but it can also can be very dangerous when people abuse it.
When abuse comes in, you are trying to escape from your reality, from your fears. You are rejecting the emotional pain. And I don’t blame or judge anyone for it. Pain is not pleasant, as humans we are not all ready to fully feel and surrender to the divine and look within.
I wrote an article earlier this year focusing on addictions, BREAKING UP ADDICTIONS, but here I just want to focus on the how some people define taking drugs as okay when using it in a more conscious way, or as in a ceremony.
What is my opinion of it? I don’t know…
I truly would like to have an answer, but searching for answers has shown me, more and more, the search itself is pointless.
From personal experiences, drugs have never really helped me, because they never empowered myself to find answers to my own questions. Yes, sure, Ayahuasca has had a massive impact on myself, and how I see the world, but once I learned that way I didn’t have to keep coming back to it. I carried it in my heart; the lessons, the visions, the wisdom.
I also believe everyone is different and people have different paths, and how they choose to open and walk their path is up to them.
But I have suffered in the past with lower vibrations carried by drug taking from myself and others, so I try to gain clarity and understanding that they are not the answer for what I’m looking for or trying to connect with. Yes, they can be used as a great tool, so you can learn how to shift thought different dimensions and connect with consciousness as well as with people in your life.
However, you should be able to do that naturally, as it’s part of your making as a human to be able to have those experiences without having to take anything. Just by opening your heart, and by opening to the universe.
The answers are always inside, and they then become your external world when you fully embody the unity of all.
That’s why light workers will normally be “against” drugs, because they are already in touch with those high frequencies. Although “against” is not the appropriate term, because they know everything is so perfectly happening the way it should.
Yes, yes, I know this is contradictory, and so is life..
It’s being able to be all and nothing at once. To embrace it all within the eternity of you.
I still have so much to learn, to explore, and to understand, so I’m truly looking forward to the comments on this article.
Thank you for reading,
Love and Light.