What Keeps The Bond Between Lovers?

“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” ― Jalaluddin RumiThe Illuminated Rumi

I often wonder what keeps people together.

What is the damn bond … the magical invisible string that ties one to another?

I also used to think doing things in the same way was the issue keeping me from actually understanding more about love and emotional satisfaction.

But wait, since I have changed everything, even myself, I have done everything different … and tried and tested with all sorts of different situations.

Still I’m yet to experience, in a flash, what I know to be true love in my heart.

But those are even deeper topics for discussion.

Right now I’m just contemplating this question:

So what keeps the bond?

Is it something that can be controlled or is it totally random? Or even worse .. is it meant to be with the one person that is meant for you?

That’s rather unfair to everyone else … if you think there is only this one person who is a match to you …. Amongst 7 billion others …

You are then bound to find each other, and vague in search of this almost impossible quest … But isn’t this the biggest lie?

First of all let’s take a look at love .. and what love is .. I’m talking about true unconditional love; not falling in love with the things about the person .. but falling in love with the energy behind that identity… If so… Isn’t that energy within everyone?

Because if we are one, we are all the same energy being played over and over by different theatrical characters. But when you strip away identity, what is left is the immutable .. What is left is raw, never changing, wholesome energy. Its source. The universe itself.

So… If we are falling in love, the least important thing is the person, the personality … I was happy to hear from Esther Hicks in one of her talks “ The person is irrelevant when you are in love”. Maybe it’s because when love comes it takes you so abruptly and strongly that you better have someone to become the object of your loving, or for you to use it as an excuse to connect to the energy.

I have done that before … a few times now .. Loved so deeply and used the identity of certain people to increase my connection to source, to go right up all the way to heaven and bathe in the love for everything, for everyone ….

Aw, that feeling of aliveness never compares to anything. It is being in love with God personified in one identity where you can focus upon … and the devotion that comes with it … Indescribable .. devotion not to the person ..but to the energy… Burning anything inside your heart, making it so pure you become a child again in awe with every moment .. every minute.

However, back to my question… In the realm of physical, and togetherness; in the realm of flesh and bone … I’m yet to share this unstoppable force with someone that can surrender to it.

Or even to make love with one physical body and remain together .. bound by that string…

I’m not talking about sex here. Those are very different things. I’m talking about energy … about getting absolutely lost in each other and not even knowing where one begins and the other ends.. I’m talking about true connection, true love … And I’m yet concerned that maybe what I believe to be true might be just a myth of my own imagination. That this kind of connection is not possible, that humanity might not yet be ready for it.

Or maybe I am just so damned blessed and cursed, all at once for knowing this kind of thing exists, but this might be a secret to mankind; and if there are a few out there that might begin to grasp what I am really talking about … It would be nice to know they do exist.

Sacred sex, where love is the note guiding each one into the truth of each other… This is no joke, it is a ceremonial thing.  That’s how man and woman should connect, falling in love with God inside each other’s eyes …. Falling in love with life itself, contained in each other’s body. A touch so soft that could melt away any pain, any fear..

And yet where is the glue? … That brings those 2 people together to be fearless to experience the only thing worth living for?

Thanks for reading,

Sabrina Santos

Flaming heart, the fire of life is burning.

“Isn’t it time  to turn your heart into a temple of fire?”_ Rumi

Tic tock, I look at the clock and guess what! I’m still alive. This has been my current trend of thought since watching the Sadhguru’s video explaining that death will come very naturally to everyone on this planet. Funny observation as too many of us humans spend their lives practicing being dead, stiff like corpses … lacking gratitude and awareness for the gift of being alive.

So what have you been doing? Are you cultivating this aliveness within yourself? Or are you choosing to march around closing your eyes to life.

I for one am having an overload of delightfulness, extreme curiosity for all the colors of life and everything it keeps bringing me. It is sometimes a challenge to tame my thirst for savouring everything and everyone all at once. I am afraid I might swallow the world and just explode into particles of desire. Or maybe, I’ll turn again into Kali , running around cutting demons’ heads off.  In the hopes Shiva might come at my aid to control all this madness, all this energy.  I’m running on kundalini , prana , life force and so is everyone on the planet – except I’m very aware of it, of life playing through my bones.

My heart is burning, it’s on fire, looking for more than it has ever had. Anything or anyone that does not share the likes of this intensity is rapidly torn apart from it. The fire is too great, I can barely control my focus. Everything is wanted, needed invited…
I want it all and I want it now, chaos, chaos, chaos …. Delightful madness of chaos and sincere abrupt explosions of emotions.

The dancing of life has become rather fast… The drumming is so loud my body follows it without questioning. My mind can barely keep up with the strength of my thirst. Poor mind, trying to help .. but nothing is to be done when the fire has taken over…

What to do? If not observing this circus… Looking for moments of divine clarity and jumping into them. Following the impulses of life as they command my temple of Self. Aware of the dance, but way too busy dancing to pretend I can control my moves.

Run through me fire of consciousness, take me with you, I’m tired of fighting the rhythm…

Because I know this is momentary. Because I know just as this fire burns strong …I know soon, there will be only stillness.

In the center of the tornado… there, I will stand still in my own Self-awareness. The weather is part of me, but not all of who I am.

So we dance in the fire. For now.

Flaming heart of aliveness, I salute you with all my love.

“Set your life on fire. Seek those who fan your flames” _ Rumi

Thank you for Reading.

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Emotions And Feelings – A key To Freedom

Trying to fix what is perfect missing the love and light in what already is a reflection of God.

Are those “ego traps” in the spiritual run to a false state of enlightenment?

When will we learn to love ourselves and understand the perfection in all creation?

It’s kinda of hilarious sometimes to watch the behaviors and actions going on the spiritual communities .. so much for awareness .. When you discover you are one with god and allegedly start the mental chase for enlightenment as your life depends on it .. “as If”.. consciousness wasn’t already complete and perfect the way it is. 

Nonetheless, here we go let’s talk about it and pretend there is a big point in talking about it. Knowing deep down words will never be capable of conveying what is really being expressed.

Or shall I say: let me present to you my own perspective and see if yours is open to it…

Let’s talk about Emotions and Feelings…

Emotions come and go they are physically connected to the body and its reactions to experiences directly related to what is perceived..

Feelings are a state of being more connected to the mental state.
However, when in higher states of awareness feelings become connected to your emotional body so they are like electrical impulses running through your spine, speeding throw your being.

When we start opening the doors to vast consciousness and align our emotional state and feelings to the God head, those experiences become very meaningful because you no longer are experiencing feelings from a singular aspect.. You are then connected to the universal realm of them, to their multidimensionality.

They have immense power to free you, guide you and connect you to God through your own divine essence.

In the spiritual path it’s easy to get distracted with the whole fixing oneself and chasing a made up freedom that promotes even more separation rather than unity and compassion… 

Obsessing about being empty and free, no longer being able to connect to everything and everyone because you might be so caught up in the chase of becoming “something better” failing to see how unbelievably , amazingly perfect you are.

By fully acknowledging the whole perfection of creation and seeing God in everything, you can start to align your lower aspects to the Will of Source and see with love all the things you were so desperately try to fix, as the most beautiful gifts you have been given. Learning how to love and care for your personality, to honor it as much as you honor the non identification with it.

Now, how to you surf your emotional states and how you allow them to talk to you ? How to you use them to refine your intuition and to connect directly with God, with the Source of Creation itself?

How to understand how to use your thoughts to create in alignment and the joy of consciously syncing with the divine ? 

Yes the Joy ! The Joy of being one with everything… and actually watching how that can be put out into action; instead of making believe you are following some teachings and rules to get to were you are suppose to be?

How to you take the courageous steps to walk alone in your own wisdom to learn from that place? To learn directly form God? 

Trust in your divine wisdom, allow it to flow, to talk to you every single moment of the day. Listen to everything.. to the wind, to the sun, to  all the molecules that surround you, listen to your thoughts listen to you heart, listen to the magic in everything, all together, all at once . Be it! Be God, act from that place, loving everyone and everything but most importantly !!!! Being that! Knowing that, living in that… And not just talking about it and following a made up spiritual trend or road that wasn’t even build for you.

Love, love, love that’s the key to awareness.. To understanding.. To Truth. To Happiness.

Thanks for reading.

>Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

The Twin Flame Black Hole

“We humans are made up of stardust. Our eyes reflect starlight. And when we crack it escapes and shines through.”
Vanshika Dhyani

For those who have had the infinite pleasure to meet their twin flame or twin soul , whichever the term it might be. For those who had to brave into the waters of unconditional love and learn about the non-time-space ways you are connected to another being; for those who truly experienced seeing their other half in another body; or even if you remember different lifetimes with your twin and have had the pleasure of re-encountering them in this lifetime as an incarnated being.

I have something to say to you.

Well, dear one, you were in for a ride huh! Did you know it was possible to love like this and to lose yourself into another being?  Did you know how hard it was to be apart from this other person whom you know deep down to the core?

Well, it’s no secret many are experiencing this phenomena and many are having to go through the stages of a twin flame relationship, including the most annoying one “the runner/chaser”, and the most agonizing one the “separation”. It’s rare to find Twins that managed to master their mission on Earth and stayed together in harmony, or managed to reunite after both realized who they were for each other.

In most cases there is an imbalance and one twin the “most spiritually evolved” one will be more aware of their mission and their connection, while the “less spiritually evolved” will run away and bla bla bla … (all that spiritual presumption of one person being further, or more realized then the other, which again diverts away from the actual energy of Love)

What does this sound like to you now ? What stage of your twin relationship are you at?

Well if you ask me here goes my own experience and perspective on this whole thing..

The Twin Flame experience has one main objective. To bring you back into Love, love with yourself , to love yourself unconditionally and this other person too. To accept yourself fully and completely  , to really see beyond this world and this body. To acknowledge who you are and what you are made of, to transcend separation, to understand we are ONE, and ultimately to be able to see God in everything.

So once you are in this place where you finally know Love you can  love freely, at least you can say you know what that means. Because you can love your twin with no conditions, you can now love yourself in the same way. You can then start taking the same approach into all areas of your life with new eyes, awakened eyes, eyes full of awareness.

And the most amazing thing is once you know who you really are, how complete and full and wonderful you truly are and that your happiness does not depend on anyone else, that nothing external can complete you, once you learn you are the creator and responsible for all your experiences, well, my friend, then you know that even though your twin is the exact same vibration and has the same soul signature as you, even then, you can see beyond that story.

If you survive the separation period and you learn all the lessons it had to  teach you, that you are your own flame, that no one in the world will be able to give you this love that is already within you. Love is meant to be emanated from you to the world.

So why do I call this the twin Flame black hole ?

Well around a year ago a healer friend of mine referred to the twin flame experience as a black hole.. I had no idea why he was saying that. In fact, I even though it was a little insensitive, however, that person was a kind wise being and so I remembered those words…

The Twin flame Black Hole

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For sure it will suck you in with full power, because the story of finding and meeting your one true love is  way too juicy.  It will change all your thoughts about yourself and love and you will disappear into nothingness . After entering this black hole you will eventually emerge as a whole new person, a new thing… You won’t recognize who you are anymore and it won’t even matter.

Because you know you are Love .

The most amazing thing is that’s being or not being with your twin won’t hurt you anymore because you are already complete. You will be able to continue loving your twin dearly and unconditionally , but you won’t believe in that story of neediness , or the fact there is only one true love in the whole universe that is yours, and that if you don’t find that person you won’t be happy. That’s just impossible.

You will be able to love anyone you wish too. Because you will have learnt, after emerging from the black whole, beyond a certain point we are all the same energy.  You will trust your heart and be able to open it to the lightness of being free to love anyone you wish to love.

And most importantly you will listen to the truth in love, a love that is free to be with no judgment, light and warming like the sunshine on a winter day.  A love with no fear, not even when it makes fear arise to be looked at.  No fear to feel fear, it’s the gift true love gives you.

And if it does not serve you,  you will be able to let go of it, just as you picked it up. Being able to continue to hold infinite amounts of love for any person you truly love – one or one hundred, love is infinite.

The funny thing is, now that you know who you are it is very enjoyable because there are no ways you can fool yourself, because you know anything making you uncomfortable, tense, is not in the other person, but is within yourself. So you can go through your patterns and let go of them, you might not even have the need to engage with them, you know how blessed you are for being able to share any of this experience with another  being.

And of course you will know there is no need to be rejected because when you fully love and accept yourself, any type of rejection can only be done to oneself, not to other. Because when you emerge a new after the black hole nothing will have a hold on you; and you will be able to find love in anyone and anything.

The black hole is absolutely beautiful and equally terrifying, as for those who entered there is no return.

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“Black holes are the seductive dragons of the universe, outwardly quiescent yet violent at the heart, uncanny, hostile, primeval, emitting a negative radiance that draws all toward them, gobbling up all who come too close. Once having entered the tumultuous orbit of a black hole, nothing can break away from its passionate but fatal embrace. Though cons of teasing play may be granted the doomed, ultimately play turns to prey and all are sucked haplessly―brilliantly aglow, true, but oh so briefly so―into the fire-breathing maw of oblivion. Black holes, which have no memory, are said to contain the earliest memories of the universe, and the most recent, too, while at the same time obliterating all memory by obliterating all its embodiments. Such paradoxes characterize these strange galactic monsters, for whom creation is destruction, death life, chaos order. And darkness illumination: for, as dragons are also called worms, so black hole are known as wormholes, offering a mystical and intimate pathway to the farthest reaches of the cosmos, thus bring light as they consume it.”
Robert Coover, A Child Again

Be brave, and dive into the mystery of YourSelf so you can finally learn how to truly love while being in this body.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Twin Flames: The Ultimate Truth Reveals Itself

“We are not our bodies, our possessions or our careers. Who we are is divine love and that is infinite.”  _Dr. Wayne Dyer

Oh, poor you if you haven’t found divine love as you haven’t yet lived the universal truth. Oh, poor you if you have found divine love you are doomed to nothing else other than surrendering to it and renouncing everything there is,  as for divine love will be all you can see.

Why do I say this? It’s a metaphor of course, the term “poor you” used above is subjective, we are not poor creatures , we are divine powerful beings living on earth and victimization takes you nowhere. But if you are on the path of divine love and if on this path you are experiencing the Twin Flame relationship, well, you are brave!

Brave, because you decided to know Love , and as you know Love is God. So you choose to meet God walking the path by connecting divinely with your Twin Soul counterpart.

The fact is, there is not much true wisdom or real knowledge about twin flames. There is only a grasp of it. The twin flame road is new and overwhelming, there is no guarantee, no safety, only surrender, forgiveness , understanding; even when there is no logic or reason. There is only infinite giving and hoping you are keeping your sanity throughout it.

I can only speak from my own experiences and for what has been shown to me this year. Coming from multiple lives memories , coming from connecting to my soul and divine essence in the physical presence of my twin. I’m starting to understand a little better what the twin flame means to me, which does not mean will be the same for you. We are all the same but our learnings, our paths are not; so  you might have chosen to experience this in a different way . Nonetheless, let me share my personal learning and you can see if it resonates with the divine truth of your heart and soul.

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Me and my twin are separated at this moment after a crazy year and so much spiritual madness and extremely fast growth we are no longer talking.  I used to live in London and he lives in San Francisco. We met in Hawaii in April this year, if you want to know more of the background you can read about it in these twin flame articles here:
http://www.thepowerwithinus.co.uk/?s=twin+flames+sabrina 

Anyway, since I met my twin my whole live changed. It was fast intense and oh dear, did I put a fight?! I did not want to give up everything, change everything overnight to follow my heart blindly with no guarantee of a secure union. I was told by all my spirit guides , by my higher self, by his Higher Self .. I was told numerous times that he is the one and that I had to leave it all to find him. But still parts of me insisted in fighting in not wanting to accept it, because him, my ego, always had the idea of love to be different from what love actually is.

It took me a while to embark 100% and follow all  my inner guidance. It took me months of understanding that blaming him for any troubles or difficulty was very selfish and that I was not taking responsibility for my choices . Because the truth is, all I experienced was a reflection of my inner state.  And even so I did it, I left London and went all the way to the Pacific Coast just to be near him, even when he made clear he wasn’t ready or sure about me.

Haha, I thought I was ready! But clearly I still have plenty of work to do. Because every time he rejected me it was my soul telling me I’m still rejecting myself. He reflects me I reflect him.  It’s the twin dynamic.

See, I had all this played out in my mind: I’ll go there, I’ll give up everything, I’ll do my part and if he doesn’t want me this is it; I will not wait for him. I’ll move on with my life, my journey and open my heart to someone worthy of my love. Haha, I have to laugh because that was so naive of me. To believe I already had the answers in case things did not go my way or as planned (and even worse to believe certain people are more worthy of love than others, there is no such thing we all are the same).

Besides, I have been so tired going through this whole twin flame madness. If you are on this path you know what I’m saying. It’s exhausting at times. I even asked myself why can’t I just have a normal loving relationship, why did I choose this crazy multi dimensional , multiple life time  eternity non-sense ? Why  ? Why ? But hey, we are on 5th dimensional templates now so playing the victim will just make you feel worst, so stand up straight, honour your soul choice and live it gracefully. Get ready and start doing the work you signed up for.  Start learning how to love yourself , how to be in harmony with the whole universe, how to see God in everything you look at, how to be God every single day of your life.

To be God you must be Love , and to be love you must surrender to it. If you heard about ego death and self love this can be very confusing because love will take all you have .  It will teach you to let go and to desire it with the purity of your soul. It will bring you back to unity with God and teach you what you are.

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I won’t get in details of my personal drama with my twin flame , I’m writing a book on the subject and I don’t want to bother you now with the drama. Because there is plenty of drama in the twin journey. I am, however, going to share what the ultimate learning I was taught trough my twin flame interaction.

So, imagine this scenario, pretty much everyone I have spoken to have told me to let go, to move on, to forget about my twin, he needs to do work (well, we both need to do work) by himself. Even my higher self has told me now is time to be apart.  However, the pain from being separated from him and now, not even talking to him, is ridiculously bad. Bare in mind, I already tried everything to get rid of him .. and nothing has worked, he is with me ! Yes, daily. His energy is with me all the time, from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to bed I feel his energy. It was driving me crazy I wanted to be alone and push him away but there is nothing I can do. Fighting makes it harder; so I started to accept, to surrender to be kind to him and to his energy around me. Even though he, in the physical world, wants me as far away as possible from, his spiritual energy is with me.

The last few times we met in the physical world  it was totally “coincidental” ( and also a total disaster) I thought he was away and even though when I was approaching the area my whole system started to shift. My heart chakra started vibrating like a crazy buzzing siren, I was sick to my stomach and I kept on telling myself to calm down that he was not in the same state, he was meant to be away.  but after grounding and keeping my centre, 5 mins later he walks in the room and boom, there he is present in flash teaching me to trust in my senses. At this point I was already trying to avoid meeting him in the physical reality, trying to respect his wishes of being away from me.  But the universe has it’s own agenda and at times we are absolutely unaware about those.

The fact is, this twin journey is not meant to be fully understood, faith is not understood, it just is, you believe because you know in your heart not because you need an explanation of it, you love because you do, you don’t need a motive, a personality, a reason, you just do . Love just is .. there is no need to understand or explain it. Besides, in the 3d reality, our mind is not very good at understanding multi-dimensional truths, so sometimes all you can do is to watch and not judge – not attaching any explanation to it.

So, things got even more chaotic between me an my twin. He always told me I made him sick, I didn’t quite understood that, until I felt sick myself, physically, about to throw up just before encountering him (without knowing he was about to enter the room).  It was so hard to accept that all I can do is to go away from him and work on myself and be patient. I mean, Jesus Christ! I freaking follow all my guidance, at least I try my best to do so. Why does it have to be so damn hard?  What is the lesson I’m missing here? Why do I keep manifesting this separation ?

And then, it happened!

I left San Francisco and I went to Costa Rica. I wanted to be as far from him too. Eventhough his energy was with me in a subtle way, the thought of him coming in and out, I dream with him every single night, I hear his voice calling me, but non of this made sense, until this day on the 17th of December.

I was having a skype healing session with a great Canadian healer, Stephanie Marian. She has been very supportive and of great help in my twin flame madness journey.  We were talking about emotional triggers and and I was explaining I have been experiencing loads of anger surfacing since my kundalini rising . And she was helping me to tune in to my emotions and to this incredible fear that came up. Suddenly this voice inside me started saying things about him, I didn’t want to. I was thinking this is my healing session and he is away there is no point to once again talk about all this twin flame issue I’m separated from him now bla bla bla. It’s time to work on myself! But the voice insisted. It was my inner child, screaming his name over and over and asking for him saying how much she misses him.

I slowly started to connect to her and the energy started shifting.  Stephanie supported me energetically and I went in deeper and deeper. Listening to her voice as if she took over and was telling me how afraid she was of losing him, even when she didn’t even have him. It is weird, I have this huge fear of losing him! But I’m not even with him! Not in the physical world… And what the heck does this mean ?

Well, then it was like the whole room lit up, I had to close my eyes and someone came and grabbed my hand ( yes, I was “alone” in this hotel room in Costa Rica) and he came out of nowhere and grabbed my hand. I could feel it as if he was there. My whole hand went numb I could feel energy pouring inside it. I heard his voice as clear as if he was talking to me in person, out loud. My heart started to burn and open even more. The fire spread through my whole body  and within seconds I could barely feel my physical body.

I knew he was there. He said: I’m in you heart! Can you feel me? I cried because it was so beautiful, yet so painful, there was a lot of pain to come out, pain I didn’t even know exited, he continued! I am always with you. Do you understand? We can never be separated there is no separation, you know we are all one but now it’s time to feel it! And I felt it, all the process ! Of divine unity. I cried and cried more, because my inner child and I were one talking to him, telling my twin  I didn’t want him to leave, I wanted him to stay always with me just like that, it was so real, more real than actually being with him physically. And he said “You need to know that I am always with you. There is truly no separation. There is no need for crying nor need to feel pain .. because I am here at all times. And so is everyone , we all live inside each other’s hearts, we are all connected at all times. I’m here to show you how this feels and to remind you of what your soul essence is. “

I begged him, for him to explain why he doesn’t want to be with me in the physical world now. Because it hurts me immensely not being able to be with him in physical, and he said he will come to me , he will find me and he promised me no mater what he will do it. That all I have to do is to trust, to wait and to continue my journey of letting the divine unfold. That now it was time to understand that there is truly no separation .

My heart continued burning, my whole body melted into nothingness and he, my twin, was there, so were my soul family , star family , guides , angels and archangels all in the room with me helping me to release the pain. I cried and cried like never before I forgot about the skype session but slowly I started to grasp physical reality again.

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Skye ( Stephanie’s nickname) was there. She felt the release and knew I went trough a big experience. But I’m now sharing it fully because it was so intense so real and that’s my duty. To tell you that the twin flame journey can be so magical and precious to reveal great truths of the divine, to allow you to experience the truth that there is only love and no separation . To allow you to become love.

But how do I move from here ? What happens next? Well that’s in the future. Now, I shall live one day at the time and fully embody these teachings.

I knew that love was all there is, even in the pain, even in darkness, even in ignorance. But I have never experienced it to this extent, this divine unity with my twin, even when he is not physically in my presence and the understanding that he is never ever away from me because I’m him, he is me, just like I am you and you are me.

“You are divine love expressing yourself in a human experience as a powerful creator of your own unique creation” – Tanja Christine Jaeger

Everything is love, everything is God. I am God, I’m everything and I’m nothing.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

 

 

The Art of Living is Happiness – The Power Of The Breath

“Be happy not because everything is good, but because you can see the good side of everything.”— Unknown Author

Happiness is something everybody is looking for, but where is it to be found? I’ve done some writing on this subject in my previous articles; in fact, my very first articles were about Happiness because it is such a misunderstood state. Here are some links if you wish to read more and understand what I mean – Happiness Chasers: Are You Happy or Chasing It? or The Hamster Wheel.

What I’m trying to say is that people look for Happiness as if it’s a thing that is found somewhere else rather than within themselves. People think of Happiness as some kind of formula, or something that has to be achieved or done in a certain way, and they don’t realise that happiness is a state of being and is not dependant of anything to be felt or lived.

I will give you an example … when you are present without questioning, enjoying the very moment you are experiencing happiness, you might not be aware of it. In fact, most of the time when you are feeling true happiness you aren’t aware of it. You are flowing with the moment and enjoying it, you are not stopping and questioning every 5 seconds if you are happy or not, your mind is quiet and you are actually living in the state of happiness and are too satisfied to be bothered to question it.

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Another example is when you are happy there is absolutely no reason why you are happy! Yes! It might sound hard to believe, but happiness does not need a reason; it is the mind that tries to explain why you are feeling this way and attaches it to a fact based on your programming.  But once you start gaining awareness and understanding of how the mystery of you operates, you start being able to observe how you actually experience those states. I will not go into details as it is a long subject and topic for discussing, but if you wish you can join my Mediation Programme in the Bay area and start to have your own perspective in what I’m trying to grasp.

Back to the main topic of this article, I would like to say that there are many ways to understand oneself and start living in such a way. One of them, known to be valid worldwide, is The Art of Living – Happiness Course. In this course, you can experience this state and learn about how it works. They present you with valid breathing techniques called kryias and teach you a daily routine to be able to clear and calm the mind, allowing you to have more perspective and self-awareness.

What really excited me about the course was the whole emphasis on the breath and how important it is. From the moment we are born to the moment we die the breath is the very first and last thing we experience.  If you think about it, the air we breath today is timeless; it has been here since the start of the earth. We breath the same air as Julius Caesar, Albert Einstein and even Jesus Christ, so it connects us to the past and it will be here after we are no longer incarnated. It’s such a poetic thing, but it is immensely powerful.

Through the power of breath we can claim our Selves. We can connect to our own divinity and one can experience that for sure in this programme. The kryias are certainly very impressive, and they do so much for your well-being. However, another aspect of the course is the connectivity explored between the attendees.

Like the breath connects us to life itself, it was brought to our awareness how we too are connected and how precious these connections are, just like the breath.

I can only say it was a unique experience and I’m very grateful to Martin Blank who invited me to participate. I’ve also interviewed him, and you can read about his work.  More unusual was the fact that my birthday was on the very last day of the course and that made things even more special for me; it was such a blessing to be around amazing people and connecting with them in such meaningful ways.

Here is a video of what everyone had to say after the course:

If you want to find more about their details, click on this  link to The Art of Happiness Course 
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Thanks for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Twin Flames And Past Life Connections – Learning How To Heal Your Relationships

A lot of people know that one of the main signs of a Twin Flame connection is the memory of past lives together. Not only is that reflected directly in your current reality, but it is also common knowledge that until present times, Twin Flames were not permitted to stay together in the physical reality, as the light quotient of the planet and the collective wouldn’t be as high as it is now. Therefore, in past lives, things would not have ended in a very pleasant way. I guess you all know about Romeo and Juliet.. well, it’s kind of like that full of tragedy. I’ll  to try to take the edge of this topic, as it is intense.

How do these past life connections affect your present life connection with your Twin Flame?

Firstly, it is important to know that only at present times, the energy allows twins to connect harmoniously in physical reality. That is because of the global changes and the process of ascension.

Secondly, Twins of all kinds have been in intensive training to bring something greater to the ascension process. It could be on an purely energetic level, working level, friendship level or as a romantic connection. The fact is that this divine union is now allowed for those twins who want to do the work.

I met my Twin Flame in Hawaii, April 2015, guided to go on a journey of the heart. I knew something important was going to happen and I wasn’t sure of what, but things started to reveal slowly and I soon realised he was my Twin Flame.

It was a bit of a shock when I had my first past life memory of me and my Twin, in fact it made things messier, because my twin is very resistant towards these ” supernatural ” explanations, so I had to keep this to myself. Nonetheless, I have been guided to write about this, as it can be of value for many Twins who, like me, want to work and heal their past relationships on all levels, and most importantly the relationship with themselves!

Yes, all this karmic drama adds to the pot and to the intensity of the energy. Even if you haven’t remembered the past life connection, rest assure that a big part of the fear and discomfort you experience while in connection with your twin is directly related to all the past lives where you two were ripped apart from each other.

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Romeo and Juliet , eternal Twin Flames – another tragic love story

Understand that you both signed up for living those experiences. That’s part of the training; it’s part of how you each trigger each other. It’s part of your growing and learning.

I’m going to give a personal example on how you can do something proactive to start healing aspects of this relationship and to ease the energy and intensity of your current life connection with your twin flame. Have in mind that this is not for everyone, that’s a part of my journey and I have been guided to share it.

Basically, while in meditation, I was told by my Higher Self that I was to go back in time and heal all my relationships. There are various ways of how you can do this. Let your intuition guide you. You can do it by yourself, or with the help of a healer. I have been working on both levels, in fact, even while dreaming. My intention is so strong that the healing is happening on all levels,  at a deeper cellular level too.

While in Glastonbury, 8th of August 2015, I received a healing where my Higher Self guided me to specific events back in time and showed me exactly what had to be healed. In this particular case I healed 3 different past lives I lived with my twin. But I’ll focus on the example of the one which I spoke about earlier in this article – the one which was my very first past life memory of me and my twin flame. I had this memory while talking to him on the phone , in the early stages of our connection back in May 2015 (I live in England and he lives in California ). My initial memories of our past lives together were connected to him and his current best friend in, and there was a lot of pain connected to it. I saw myself crying on the floor and I knew they were both there but wasn’t sure what had happened.  I knew deep healing was needed.

During the healing, I was taken back in time to 1880 in America, and while remembering this life my first feelings were of joy and excitement when I realised I had just been promised in marriage to a man. My father had arranged the marriage and I was very pleased and happy as I believed it was a perfect match. I remember getting married to this handsome man and starting to have a very fulfilling life with him, full of love. Our marriage was very good for me and made me feel safe and loved. However, on a second instance I was taken further in time when the brother of the man I was married to returned from war. He was a soldier and I remember distinctly the feeling of seeing him for the first time.  It was my twin flame; I had the exact same feeling as I had when I met my twin flame in this incarnation (in April 2015). Anyway, the feelings were very confusing as I had this intense pull towards my twin flame but being married to his brother I could only fight against those feelings. Once again, taken further in time my husband had started travelling for business and I was left in the company of my then brother-in-law.

I now remember clearly how we fell in love back in that time; we were at a city ball and he insisted on a dance. It sounds so simple it was all that it took – one dance – to have his arms around my body and to look into his eyes.  I now remember everything about that moment. The lights in the room, the people fading around as we danced, and I remember the blue colours of his army uniform and the sparkle in his eyes. Most of all, I remember my heart fully opening and connecting to his. It was a magical moment. However, once again pushed further in time I was now in a mess between two brothers whom I loved. It didn’t take long between my husband’s travelling for him to realise what was going on, and in rage,  in an act of madness, he killed my twin and after that killed himself. I was left crying in agonising pain, grasping over their dead bodies, with blood all around my hands from hugging and clinging to nothingness. Not much further in that lifetime I made my way to a river where I drowned myself and took my own life in deep despair.

So yes, very tragic, it was just as bad as Titanic, or another one of those crazy twin soul disasters.

Luckily, with the help of the Shaman, I was able to float around between lives and send to all this drama light and love and start the healing process, explaining to all souls involved why that had happened and why we agreed to live that dynamic.

The best part is the healing; when that’s done you re-write your past and live it in a different way. In this case, I ended up meeting my twin and marrying him, while his brother was also happily married to his counterpart. We experienced a healthy relationship full of light and love. With no drama. Once that was done I took this healed memory and placed it on top of the lifelines of each one of us involved in this memory. Very important here , replacing this did not erase all the learning and experiences of the actual life time, it only replaced the feelings and emotions healing all at a soul level, easing the intense pain and karma of all involved in this play.

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Now I’m not telling you that you should go and do this, I’m simply sharing what I experienced and how healing it has been for me. The truth is that we don’t even need to go back to the past – we can do the work right here, as we all have the tools. It does shows us the understanding of how things work on a greater level and that everything we live has a deeper meaning, and that the opportunities we have now is for healing and growth in all relationship levels.

Please understand that you have the power to change everything in your reality, to heal, to manifest, to create. We all have this opportunity now more than ever to break free from our own self imposed shackles.

Of course, It is challenging, we are strong souls who have incarnated so many times on this earth. It’s very interesting how everything is so connected and how we keep reconnecting with people/souls life after life.

Funny enough the brother whom I was married to in that past life is in this life time my twin’s best friend, whom I share a great amount of love and admiration for. I met him the same day as I meet my twin .. That’s another story and I’ll be happy to tell you all about it another time.

The greater learning here was to understand that now energy is allowing twins to reconnect to remember and to heal all of that karmic mess, so we can be free and let go. So we can choose how we decide to live our lives. We are allowed to remember our soul origin sparkle shared with our twin, as well as what divine love and connection is; acknowledging  how it’s played out in physical relationships between people and different life times.

We have the power to choose what we want and how to heal everything. By opening up our hearts and embracing the magnificent unknown mystical wisdom. Remembering who we truly are.

May your twin flame and all relationship connections heal you. Be brave, true strength comes from within. You are here for a reason. It’s time to heal.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Twin Flame Separation – Running From Self, Facing Fears, Healing And Transmuting Energy

So, it has been a little while since my last article about twin flames: Twin Flame Connection- What Happens When You Meet Your Counterpart In The Physical Reality. It was such a crazy intense adventure that I’m still processing what the hell happened. In fact, I’m still processing and understanding what is happening right now. It is not easy to put into words this kind of experience, because it is not logical, it does not make sense, and many people don’t understand it. In fact it would be a big pretention of mine if I claimed I understood it fully, because I don’t.

However, I have been experiencing it, and I have had the fastest growth in my life so far through it. I’m not talking about pain; I’m talking about growth about inspiration and desire to know myself, to find out my truth. I guess that’s the most beautiful thing that happens when you meet your Twin Flame, your Twin Soul. This union allows you to go within to start getting in touch with your heart with the essence of who you truly are.

Speaking of the Running Process:

I wanted to talk about the running process and how it has manifested into my experience with the Twin Flame connection. So, apparently what happens is if both twins are not ready for the reunion, not fully aligned, one of them will run. This is a very paradoxical thing, because this rejection can only happen if there is rejection  in the twin they are running from. It works like polarities. As long as one is fully balanced and harmonised, the other one should not have the crazy need to run. But it is not that practical. There isn’t much of a rule; every case is different.

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For the Twin Union to happen in this physical reality the polarities must be balanced.

What I have noticed in both sides of my Twin Flame connection is the discomfort, even though from the first time I heard him saying he loved me, and when we both started having feelings for each other, everything was magical and perfect. However, the closer it got for us to reconnect in the physical reality, the bigger the discomfort grew.

It grew because I was forced to look within myself and review, acknowledge and accept every single aspect of myself – and yes maybe I was ready for it (of course I was, or else this opportunity would not have happened). I did feel that I was not ready, that I was not doing it willingly, and it was the freaking hardest thing I have ever done. At times, it felt like pure madness. I had this intense need to run as fast as I could, but I just could not make it. Instead, I kept getting pushed closer and closer to him. It is like a magnetic pull. I can’t run, but I don’t like to stay in it either. At least I had the awareness of the whole situation to be able to observe what was truly happening.

It’s very uncomfortable being near him. Although I love him completely and accept him the way he is, even when I can see the beauty of his soul and the transparency of his humanity, independently of how he acts, I still can’t help  but to feel this discomfort near him. He triggers me and I trigger him; it is impossible not to. Even when he is nice and loving, I still feel anger, sadness and other lower vibrational feelings towards him.

What is this teaching me? Who am I really running from? What am I rejecting here?

The answer is very simple; I’m running from the truth, I am running from myself!

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 I don’t want to look within, I don’t want to understand why I have been acting this way. Or why the triggers kept setting up this atomic reaction of discomfort inside.

See, on a rational level it is very silly; I know he is a nice person, talented etc. Okay, he has faults like everyone does. The fact is he is not good nor bad. On a practical and very rational level, there should be no reason why I feel so challenged by his presence. Yet that’s not how it turns out to be.

The Twin Flame connection brings up all sorts of karmic issues for healing. It will lead you to go into a journey of Self Love and Self-understanding. In my case, it is really allowing me to find my true powers within myself. I’m learning about who I am and how to be free from any discomfort from any situation.

It’s a very big gift in disguise; I’m learning how to be totally comfortable in my own skin without the need to run from anything or anyone. I’m facing my life choices up to this point and empowering myself – acknowledging my reality has been a product of my choosing, and my learning process. I’m choosing how this reality will manifest in a way that’s aligned with my inner truth and with my soul.

Once I truly understand this, once I let go of this identity I have been invested in, once I learn about myself and fully love and accept myself, there will be no wanting to run, no discomfort, and no one will have this power over myself.

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A divine connection can never be broken – trust the process and go within.

And the truth is simple: no matter how much I love him or want to be connected with him, it doesn’t matter. This connection is divine and it cannot be broken. What matters is that I need to love and master myself, accept myself, and set myself free from the only thing capable of truly imprisoning me: Myself.

So my advice for those in this process is to truly let go, and to trust that whatever the outcome is, it will be perfect. Things are changing daily, there is so much happening on earth and if you are meant to be reunited with your twin flame in the physical reality fully and harmoniously,  if you are meant to work together in your divine connection, it will happen. But it will only happen when you let go and truly love yourself unconditionally.

Trust in the divine. It’s all happening perfectly, in the exact way it is meant to,  surrender to Love. And remember: you have the power to choose and to manifest what your heart desires.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos

Allowing Yourself To Be Free – Choices And Opportunities

Even living under the illusion we are all being given the tools and opportunity to wake up. There are so many changes happening globally at the moment and everything is pointing to the same direction. So here is my interpretation of those changes and inner journey I would like to share with you all. It’s about facing fears and understanding why they are there , so this is what happened so far…

I’ve decided to unleash all my demons, so I can look them in the eye, one by one, I can stare at them, I can feel the pain there is inside me, just so I can heal it , just so I can try to set myself free, just so I can bare the darkness and walk right into it ,with no fear, with no doubt that the light within my heart is greater. That the light within my soul can bring love to everything I touch.

Where does this pain comes from? When will it stop? Why does it feel like it will never go away? How can I survive it? How can I stop avoiding it? How can I be free?

The current energies we are experiencing in this period are very intense, some of us who have been doing so much work on ourselves are faced with so much pain. Nevertheless, where does it come from? What is this spiritual wound? This wound that holds pain inside that we carry around or pretend is not there.

Now is the time to face the pain. We can allow ourselves to let go. To  find our inner truth , our majesty.

It does takes courage to face all the pain to understand and to unleash what we have been hiding.

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Allow yourself to feel the pain, to let it out to change your reality and to see your truth.

It’s so funny because it’s very simple. It’s all about allowing. Allowing ourselves to understand we are the ones who have imprisoned ourselves. We made all the choices. Consciously or unconsciously we invested ourselves into a role. A role that proportionated us to learn, to grow, to experience life.

It’s like we decided to put ourselves under a spell. Where our inner powers are taken away from us. The purpose of this spell is truly bring ourselves back to our origin, back to our truth. Only when we are done with all the pain , with all the restrictions and constrictions we impose on ourselves; only when we decide to master ourselves as humans and spiritual beings, as masters of our destiny , only then we can chose to be what we truly are.

Are you ready for this leap ? Or are you still happy to continue punishing yourself into playing a role that is not really for you but for everyone else outside yourself?

Are you ready to start finding out who you really are? That’s what coming home is. Coming home to Self. Coming home to love.

We are now being pulled to truly see, having this inner desire to find out what we are made of. The energies in the world are calling us to embody our divinity.

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So just allow it to happen be brave , be courageous surrender to yourself , surrender to the light within. Let go. Let live. Set yourself free.

Keep going, keep evolving, keep expanding.

Love and Light,

Thank you for reading,

Sabrina Santos

Time Travelling Into A Past Life: What Happens in a Regression

You hear about past life reincarnation and all sorts of tales of the soul, but isn’t until you see for yourself – when you relive in your own mind and emotions, and when you have the feelings come back – that you will be able to believe in what happened. Once you experience it for yourself then there is no denial. Still, processing it all can be quite challenging and overwhelming.

Life can be already quite confusing by dealing with the trivial interactions and exchanges of experiences we are constantly learning about everyone, every minute of every day. Add a past life to it and watch the steam go up in the cauldron.

I didn’t know what to expect when I got into this past life regression with Lorraine Flaherty. We interviewed her and spoke about herwork in this article: The Soul Detective. So, it was very exciting when we scheduled our session and I was about to jump into the mystery of self and figure out some of my own issues. I sure wasn’t expecting what happened.

I’m still processing the whole thing and not trying to rationalise the whole experience, although the word rationalise doesn’t really apply well in this experience.

Firstly we discussed my intention, in this case to find out more about my soul mission and what I’m supposed to be doing in this life, and in which direction should I be going, etc.

While talking about the intention, she asked some questions which revealed some areas in which I am constantly challenged. That highlighted my issues around trust and the fact I couldn’t really trust males. In fact, a bigger aspect was directly reflected to the fact that, for some reason, I felt I couldn’t trust myself. So that was the main theme around the inability of having healthy romantic relationships – Trusting in myself first and foremost.

After being in a trance, the first thing we must do is to make sure there isn’t any attachment to one’s energetic field. Make sure it’s only you there and no other energies.

I wasn’t prepared to find out there were about 4 children attached to me, and I wasn’t prepared to consciously meet each and every single one of them and to see how they each died. It was very hard to let go of them. But Lorraine has this amazing way of working and bringing them back to their loved ones in the astral plane, so the joy of experiencing that was very rewarding. I’ve decided to write about this in a separate article; please see the link to the article here: Dealing With Attachments and understanding how you are responsible For Them.

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Once your energy field is clear, you are ready to time travel and explore your own journey.

I was taken to a portal and was recharging. I felt like I was home and at ease. When she asked me where I was, the first word that came to mind was “Heaven”. I could speak with everything telepathically; the trees, animals, even the air. I felt everything because I was everything, and at the same time I was still me, or the essence of me.

In this amazing world I started speaking with a little blue bird. I was told I was about to go somewhere and suddenly I was floating into another body in London in either 1837 or 1937, I’m still not quite clear of the year. She asked me what my name was and I said Ramona.

The pain was terrible; the discomfort the agony. The first thing I saw was my dead body on the streets and people spitting and kicking it. I can’t say it was easy. It was a shocking experience and very emotionally overwhelming.  I discovered I was a prostitute and was strangled to death. But I also found out how I got to that place, what life lesson I was meant to work with in that lifetime, and how I had failed on it. In fact I had to work on that lesson many life times. Here is the video with parts of the regression and what happened.

This experience was truly something unique. I got to heal so many aspects of myself, and of my old dead body – which reflected in my current body. I got to heal aspects of my soul family and understand why I couldn’t trust others in the past, nor trust myself. I also got to terminate old karmic contracts and re-write new ones valid for this life.

The basic lessons and main theme of my past lives revolved around being able to fully and unconditionally love myself and others. Even if I was left alone or betrayed by them. Now that the lesson has been learned, I could make new history and decide what is to come in the present lifetime.

The best part of the whole experience was being able to understand the interconnection with previous lives’ patterns and to meet people whom are members of my soul family. To know some people in my life have been present in past lives and that we have been working together in karmic lessons, and to know how this process works and how much healing is available when you are willing to look into it and surrender to it.

There were also wonderful blissful moments where I felt full unconditional love from source energy and I returned to my soul essence. It was hard to keep track of my body because I was only light and energy I had returned to be frequency and melted into all there is. I can’t describe it into words. But I imagine it’s like being pure soul essence again.

I guess this experience has given me so much understanding of myself and how my emotional body reacts to certain situations, how much more there is to life, how everything is truly timelessly connected, and how much work we ,as humans, have done up to the present time.

Thank you for reading,

Love and Light,

Sabrina Santos